Arinah Sham

movies

2012-01-14T22:10:00.002+08:00

All the movies that I've watched this holiday: (because I just want to blog but I have no inspiration to type all the words)

(Don't watch this. It really sucks)

(This one sucks too)

(Loved this)

(I totally cried like a loser at the end)

(Nancy Kwan *.*)

(I don't know why people cried watching it............)

(LOVED THIS SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

& truth be told, there's more...
Yeap, so you kind of get an idea on how I actually spent my holidays.

Weather & Weekends

2011-12-17T09:38:00.004+08:00

The weather in Singapore seems to be representing teenagers worldwide, which basically means the classic hot & cold: an attitude us teenagers are most infamous for.
I was in my red sweater yesterday (given to me by my best friend for my 15th birthday) & the usual (now unintentionally bleached) jeans that have really start to be loose - from wearing it too much I guess?
I abhor situations like that where one time it's cool then the next it's like welcoming the indian summer with a hint of humidity just to make things a tad more frustrating to deal with.

However, yesterday was the beginning of a joyous occasion.
Harvey Norman finally acknowledged our 5 year extended warranty so Cannon was finally able to proceed with Kenny's repairing, moving on from the "error 01" that has been invisibly laminated on that black lens tucked away in the drawers in Cannon's humble abode. The day would of course have been better if I knew that I could have just made a phone call instead of brave the Friday crowds to Harbour Front.
It was quite a disastrous journey made worse with the loneliness of a solo endeavour & of course the killer weather.
God bless us all.

So yes, basically the special occasion is none other then the welcoming back of my sister's dearly beloved DSLR, Kenny.

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So I finally found out who this Aaron Tan is: yes, the trending topic all over Twitter.
I've never really been interested in all these Singaporean hype because I knew that all these would always, always be coupled with heavy usage of Singlish which I am definitely not a fan of, no offense.
Urm.... He was kind of smirking in the video so to tell you the truth I am unsure of whether or not this was meant as some sort of satire or it was in fact reality?
Nonetheless, besides the heavy usage of vulgarities (of which he apologized for - which I was actually impressed at), I don't get it why people have to go all out to provoke him for his inferior pronunciation.

Just because you have a fake accent & pointed eyebrows, it doesn't make you any better than he is now isn't it?
At least he doesn't try too hard up to the point where one would feel nauseated just by playing audience to that less than excellent display. If you ask me, I kind of feel sad for this boy because he seemed to really like his girlfriend & nothing hurts more than a broken heart right (cue: teenagers hypnotized by the idea of puppy love)?

You know what amuses me more? This Steven Lim person who insists that he is some sort of mainstream local artiste (delusional, really) mocking Aaron Tan when he, in fact, has a fair amount of......deplorable (yes deplorable!!!) scribbled all over his face. This situation is just turning into one of the saddest satires I've ever experienced in my whole millions of breaths I take, starting from my first cry.

Away from all these redundant "dramatic" events, I am feeling pretty excited for the camping trip at Changi later on with my the most irritating girl ever: Leana.
A thunderous applause (preferably a half-hearted one please) for how she got that tittle: it all started on Tuesday - the day where adventure & gastronomy coupled up to present a thrilling excitement much like a frisson very much desired by a coquette.... hmm okay that sounds almost degrading but the main point is: we had much fun, as always.
So how did she acclaim this tittle? Simple: from the countless "Haha!! You have short hair now!!"

It started from when we ate various types of sushi to chocolate sundaes to the big ass plate of Long John Silver's fried stuff to a large cup of KOI such that that particular phrase clinched the tittle of being Phrase Of The Day.
One can only eat so much so double that "so much" for there were two of us.
So one tick for our List Of Things To Do After Os/Ns.

It's hilarious really how before the major exams end you seem to have a whole different set of plans lined up to commemorate the end of the darkest periods of your lives & enjoy the new found freedom but when the day itself finally comes, all one really does is well.. nothing.
How many weeks has it been since the Os passed? I have no idea but what I know of is that I spent my days with nothingness.
A full cycle of nothingness at which my day stars at 12pm - the time when I wake up every single day.
TV & internet basically filling up the hours leading to my bedtime. I don't even have a job. I only half-heartedly tried searching for one.

If you think I'm complaining well you're wrong because underneath it all, I'm actually one of the most boring people alive & I'd rather much spend my day at home instead of wandering around Town, having my shoulders collide with other people & at the same time swapping germs with every less than romantic touch we exchange.
Doesn't it sound depressing already? So this is the part where I channel the narcissist in me to tell you that my ability to rationale is somewhat amazing.

& just for that last sentence, I deserve a slap.

I foresee that it'll be a joyous weekend ahead spent with my loved ones.
I mean, amidst all the self-inflicted isolation, there has got to be some interaction with the world outside these concrete walls of my home, right? Oh time, speed up slower than fast.

The Quiet Place Project

2011-12-14T11:14:00.000+08:00

http://thequietplaceproject.com/thequietplace/en

gross

2011-12-14T09:58:00.001+08:00

I don't even know why I watched this but the kid with the crazy hair in shades (smallest boy) is just adorable ^-^

haircut

2011-12-11T17:36:00.003+08:00

Let's embrace the era of smartphones. & I must say, I have no cause of complain for you won't believe me when I tell you where is it I'm blogging from: earthlings, I'm blogging from a black chair, wearing black from head to toe (except for my bubblegum pink havaianas) & surrounded by black hair.
I am at the hair salon & after about 1+years of not cutting my hair, I finally am.

Of course, it saddens me to see my hair get snipped away by the fine steel of a scissors but I am completely aware that at a point of time, I have to cut it.
Unless, in some whimsical of a mind, I decided to challenge the World's Guiness Record for longest hair.
Fear not, though, as hygiene overrules my inexistent desire for the record. I can't imagine the possibility of hygiene & extremely long hair collide to form a squeaky clean image. They're just not on the same wavelength: they're in fact far from being, well, organic.

Oh & speak of embarrassment! The hairdresser just asked me where did I come from as in with reference to the havoc state of my hair (cue: tangles).
Between you & I (& behind the somewhat shy smile that I replied her with) let me explain with perfect reasoning that the reason to all these tangles is in fact because I........do not comb my hair..........
Well in my defense, combing hair would only result in more hair dropping off due to the force & friction inflicted in every stroke to that mane of yours.

& as I type that out I realise the irony of it all: the tangles, eventually, actually cause more hair fall doesn't it?
Ah........... As they would say "total ownage" & that's even more stupid to be "owned" by myself by a word that doesn't even exist! How absurd do I present myself to be!

Hmm... A middle-aged lady insists that the hairdresser who is attending to I cut her hair but since we're not even half done, she's just sitting right next to me & staring at me with great concentration.
Freaky? Yes, very freaky indeed. From her face, I have deciphered that she somehow sees the link between my typing & her long waiting.
In my opinion, it is actually unfair for I, too, am a customer & just because I'm a teenager & that my mum wandered off to somewhere only she knows, it doesn't make her a superior.

& I can tell that the other hairdressers, who are free, feel pretty much insulted over her insistence to have my hairdresser attend to her. Well, I just hope that I don't end up as snobbish as she is in the future.

isolationism

2011-11-28T23:39:00.002+08:00

& if you fall asleep down by the water.

I really like being alone.
It’s like the upbringing of the powerful dictator inside you that has been in hiding up until every person around you moves away from you... If that actually makes sense.
(With the absence of cruelty to anyone else & the killing of millions of Jews, of course. Cue: Hitler)
I just feel that Alone Time is essential because you’re around people all the time, even within the vicinity of your home, such that sometimes it’s almost suffocating.

As much as Freedom of Speech is largely emphasized in many continents of this world, there’s that non-denying existence of being judgmental planted in these souls of ours.
The stereotypical era has made us all judgmental one way or another & paranoid, too, about what others think of us, how people view us, how people accept us.
Those few sentences have probably devoured a modicum of happiness inside you but the world is the way the world is, it has to be that way to ensure stability.

However, too much of a good thing is a bad thing & too much of a bad thing…is still a bad thing…
Thus, we’re back to me liking to be alone.
I can just be me, unleash every bit of insanity & be the total weirdo that I am without fear of being labeled “terrorizing” (or any euphemism of it even).
I can do whatever, be whatever my imagination allows me to be & even have a Nerf battle with myself while pretending that I am an undercover government agent because Spy Kids do exist.

People think that once you enter the glorified Teenage Years & refuse to wear identical clothes as your sister like you two used to, you lose your sense of being playful.
True, we gain maturity & start to realize that Santa Claus does not exist alongside Hogwarts & Spiderman (& sadly even Spy Kids), trips to Toys R Us become less exciting & we no longer don pink Oshkosh B’gosh overalls but there’s still that imaginative child in us all.
& I really like being that imaginative child that I once was & still am because I allow myself to step out of teenage zone & channel my hippy free soul to be whatever when I’m alone.

It’s sad that everyone has this idea of how you should act when you reach this certain age.
Society truly has killed the teenager, filling our Twitter accounts with quotes of heartbreak & puppy love, profanities that we don’t even know the meanings of, changing our perspective of life.
Personally, I don’t get it why people need to retweet all these sappy love quotes over & over again despite knowing what clichés they actually are.

I also don’t understand the need to unleash teenage angst every single day.
We all have bad days but if you have bad days everyday then it no longer becomes a bad day it just becomes something daily thus why the need to be worked up about it all the time?
Get used to it. Move on. Isolate yourself.
That’s the best meditation, really: to not spread your deadly pessimist disease, just shut you down from any connection pertaining the society & give yourself Alone Time which would definitely set your mood right. & if that doesn’t help, you might consider a trip to the shrink’s office.

So, cheers to the teenage years?
Nah, I’d rather cheer to time alone J

2011-11-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

HOW I SPEND MY HOLIDAYS:

2011-11-17T13:15:00.002+08:00

Three cheers to freedom.

So the Os are over & I am but a free soul.

I feel liberated & empowered by this new found freedom.

It has given me the liberty of filling my days up with nothingness with an absence of guilt.

What I have achieved the past few days deserves an ovation:

1) I went to Oakham Market yes the discovery of Ann Siang Hill finally dawned upon me.

Oakham Market itself was.... Well, I found out that a lot of JSS students went there to get their Graduation Lunch attire & the thought of wearing something similar as someone else was appalling, really. (So good ol' Topshop it was + how crazy of me to think that $80 would be sufficient)

I really liked the atmosphere of the area how they retained the history but sparkled it up with a splash of the 21st century.

If Little India wasn't so filled with Bangladesh men who stare at you(r boobs), I would love to explore it, alongside my camera in hand & just snapping the beautiful saris Indian people love to don. Maybe someday, I'll muster up the guts to wear it too.

Maybe someday, I'll get my own camera & this time definitely NOT from Harvey Norman.

2) I watched a whole series of The Lying Game in 2 days.

Well, based on hours it's only 1 day actually since my annoying of a sister (love her) brought it with her to AFC (where she interns) & yet she didn't watch the dvd so what's the point really.

Oh well, at least I had a chance to finally watch it, eventually though pardon me for my foul mood pertaining to the fact that things didn't go as planned.

(Yes, I'm a sucker for timetables)

Well, I wouldn't want to be a spoiler but let's just say the ending was as abrupt as Pretty Little Liars' ending was.

3) I cleaned my room. As in cleaned it thoroughly, out with the old & making way for the new.

Not that I don't clean my room I have earned myself the tittle of being a paradigm of hygiene freak over the past 2 years thanks to the excessive reliance on hand sanitiser.

(Ah, I'm really going to miss some of my classmates: even their pathetic "ee germs!!" imitation of me & well let's just say the remaining few deserve to just kiss my ass you annoying bitches ha ha ha k)

So, it was gone with the worksheets, Ten Year Series, assessment books, MYE papers, GE papers everything was gone but I kept my Chemistry notes. I really love them & the effort I put into them made it worth the keep.

I kept some of my compositions though, my "Kevin MND" GE2 being one of them.

I'm not going to lie but I really liked that story & I can't actually believe that I wrote it.

I also kept my A Maths paper: I really did improve & I wanted it to serve as a reminder that I can. (I just hope my Os were okay)

4) I downloaded movies. Yes, this is an achievement to me mainly because the only movies I downloaded came from YouTube (no judging) & the power of Funshion has reached my embrace, tingling on my fingers with every click on this black keyboard. Now all I need is a USB cable to connect my iPod to the TV & it'll be movies everyday.

5) I can make the best scramble eggs on which I shall not dwell on because it's a secret recipe he he he :B

6) I fell in love with...

http://www.buzzfeed.com/mjs538/reasons-why-bradley-cooper-is-definitely-not-the-s

Oh. Such a sexy remedy for my Cole Mohr addiction.

Okay fine so maybe the only real achievement was the cleaning up of the room but hey, it's the littlest things in life that truly stand out now isn't it? :)

I'll be raping Orchard road later trying to find my outfit urgh lazy is I but well meeting up with the bitchy cousin would make things worth it (y)

"release the kraken!!!"

2011-09-24T21:23:00.002+08:00

So I guess people were right about the O Levels year.

It does drain you & pretty much prevent you from having a social life.

It's this year too that you'll realise how precious time really is & 29 days can pass in a blink of an eye as everything that you've learned for the pass 4 years is put to test in that few pages of paper, coded with 4 digit numbers and a plus 2 more at the back.

The point is, I want to apologise for my lack of updates but then again DOES ANYONE EVEN READ MY BLOG?!?!?! HAHAHAHA.

I've been into Glee songs nowadays because of The Glee Project, specifically this guy down here in the black & white video. Sexy.

& with that, until we meet again on 14 November 2011.

Ps. My new twitter account!!! http://twitter.com/#!/krakenkreature

Monday is depressing

2011-09-05T04:18:00.004+08:00

"WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?"

The question itself, because of it being in all caps, has obviously triggered your mind to read it in a screaming voice, probably one filled with intense anger. Tone of voice: somewhat... rough - like recovering from a bad case of sore throat.

Sunlight is about to greet us, my fellow Singaporeans but here I am still wide awake from the effects of a cheap instant vanilla latte, freshly brewed from the comfort of my kitchen.

I have stayed up waiting for a description of my character for my testimonial & have then moved on to watching TV, mainly satirical shows that make no sense & amazingly, something linked to Glee.

Yes, insert a drum roll right about here, for yes yes yes I watched *The Glee Project* against my principles of anti-Glee but hey let me tell you another confession: I pretty much have Glee songs (inferior quality but still audible) stored in my iPod. Gasp, people, gasp.

I found out something about myself today!!!!

It seems that my inner blogger is not directly or inversely proportional to the fun things that happen in my life but more to.... sudden bursts of energy like right now in the form of coffee.

I also realise that it can happen at any random hour of the day, or night, or day-night for that fact, which leads me to conclude that I should be scared of my indecisive mind.

I also realise that the blogging mood can die down fast thus the speed of my typing plays an important role because I tend to lose focus as easy as an almond nut okay why is it an almond nut don't even ask, that's the first thing that actually popped into my head.

Away from Gossip Girl, Pretty Little Liars, HIMYM & what nots, I have decided that my new favourite show is actually one that does not involve cute boys with limousines & empires or secret murder wishes but instead a divorcee & a gay-like son.

YES PEOPLE, IT'S COUGAR TOWN. Cougar Town, well I really hope that I don't end up being a cougar in the future though...

Hari Raya oh Hari Raya: the number one reason or excuse but I'd say *reason* as to why I have been unproductive. Chats, catch-up & a whole new level of shopping has mislead me into a pathway of fun & joy & lazy ass procrastination.

Everyone was shocked at how I actually wore heels. No more Nike, hello Aldo.

AM I TURNING INTO A LADY? Gosh, that kind of... sucks.

I want to get coffee beans & green tea leaves & Havaianas.

"Do you miss the old times? Do you think of the old times?"

I do. & life back then was so much better without you.

Okay fine I admit. It is a bit childish of me to display emotions of dislike towards you but I can't help it, you stole what was once ours. Sashay in with your so-called bubbly attitude god I can just puke. The sight of you annoys me, you're such an eyesore.

Why are you all clingy? Why are you part of "us"? Heck, why in the world were you even born?

You call your friend fake, you're faker than plastic made in China. Cheap.

& because I don't like to end my post with negativity, let me just give a shout out:

I HAVE THREE HAMSTERS NOW HEHEHEHEHEHEHE.

Calvin, Hobbes & Squirrel! Luv iLuv iLUvv luvv~

2011-08-29T17:01:00.005+08:00

"You're sad aren't you?"

"No..."

"Yes you are"

Therefore, this is thank you, goodbye, until we meet again.

2011-08-09T21:23:00.003+08:00

REJECTED. My brilliant idea was rejected. This is the part where I stay silent & go "emo" for awhile.

"Emo" a term that does not exist. For now, Pretty soon, it'll be just like LOL & OMG who have gone far in earning themselves a place in the dictionary.

There's this new show on Channel 5 called Million Dollar Money Drop (if I'm not wrong) & the only reason why anyone is even watching that show is because of...

THIS

HOLY LORD IT'S CRYSTAL CLEAR NOW - THE REASON WHY I'M ALIVE.

Well to be honest that's a pathetic picture of him, GOOGLED.

Gosh, I'm so not badass, I so don't have the moves like jagger.

My playlist is getting more mainstream as time flies by. I guess this is why they're mainstream: everyone listens to the songs, everyone who doesn't eventually does.

It's overpowering like the influence of illuminati on the media nowadays.

I find myself loving life more nowadays, I find myself appreciating people more nowadays.

I also find myself thanking God for my life, for the things that I now have, for the food on my table, for living in Singapore & not facing poverty, for my family & friends & for letting me live each day. Maybe this is the effect of Ramadhan.

Or maybe it's because I've reached a point in my life where I am finally contented with what I have & instead of constantly wishing for more, I turn to acceptance.

There must be a reason why this is my life, why he never stayed in my life & someone else did instead, or why my ex-best friends never made it to "best friend for life" but my current best friend seems promising of that tittle.

One day, when the sky is falling I'll be standing right next to you.

THIS^^^^^^^^^^^ is currently the soundtrack of my life. Lol.

&4/3, iluvu guys so much.

2011-08-07T09:24:00.005+08:00

Well, it's been awhile since I've been here.

It's no denying: my life has been pretty much filled up with tons of A Math papers, thinking of steps for the teachers day performance on top of trying hard to get 4 marks for my Chemistry SPA3 & then now worrying about Physics SPA3 because I can't seem to sustain a mark of more than 2 & the pile of things I have to do before GE2, which is in 2 weeks time, is just increasing.

I am sad. I am sad at how my life turned out to be this year & I am tired, I realise.

My energy in school seems high but when I reach home, POW! black out: I can't even stay up past 9pm this week perhaps all the energy used in previous months of sleeping at 12-1am in the morning needs some sort of rejuvenation.

If only, if only I could turn back time.

Hmm... Let's not dwell over this doleful state of my life, instead let's bring out the mirthful soul. It is the month of Ramadan everyone! :D

The holy month meant for good deeds, repenting & Thailand ghost movies. Just because.

Also, I could have sworn I saw a jembalang once or twice & if it wasn't Ramadan I'd probably freak out & wet my pants but oh my imaginative mind.

I am pretty excited for next Saturday: there'll be the Teachers Day Rehearsal as well as a family reunion! BEST (Y) I can't wait to see the performances of the other graduating classes & my cousins.

Allah has blessed us today with cool rain, perfect weather for perfect everything.

I had a plan for today but it seems that it isn't going as planned & there seems to be an obstacle (in the form of my mother) preventing me from carrying out what I had perfectly planned in my mind. *deep sigh*

I just texted my form teacher asking if there were lessons tomorrow & oh holy mother of joy, she replied me with a "Nope dear. :)" PUT YOUR HANDS UP, GET YOUR DRINKS UP EVERYONE!!!

& I'm thinking of wearing red tomorrow since my red tee is simply comfortable but the thought of wearing red alone is kind of.... sad. Thus, Operation Manipulate Syazzy is going to be carried out very, very soon. Soon as in in 2 hours time.

& 4/3, THERE SHALL BE PRACTICE TOMORROW. I am so sorry if this ruined any sort of plan :(

I feel like I have broken some hearts when I had to choose people to perform in either the first or second part of the pair dance. I can tell that some are disappointed but...

The worse feeling was breaking the news of the need to choose.

The deplorable un-updated iTunes of mine: I have been skipping tens of songs at one go & nothing seems pleasing to the ears. Oh, & I've been very much addicted to Best Love Song (Jason Chen cover). I also realise how he actually, in a teensy way, looks like Zac Zhao (local model)!!!!!!!!!!

& I am a total pedophile because _______________. Yeah, I totally found that short guy omg so cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuute! Hehe :B

2011-07-11T15:16:00.003+08:00

A lot can happen in 2 hours.

In 2 hours you can watch a movie, finish up a meal, do shopping, complete your homework assignment, read a book, wash the dishes, exercise, gossip about the hot new neighbour next door.

In 2 hours you can experience a life-changing experience like finding out you're pregnant or adopted or suffering from a serious disease or that your boyfriend of 6 years is gay & is going to dump you for some man twice your age.

At the end of 2 hours, we all achieve different things, or well, not achieve in some cases (cue gay boyfriend right about here).

I woke up at 6.30am today. Well actually the alarm on my phone rang/vibrated at 6am at which I kept snoozing every time interval of 5 minutes up until it showed 6:30am.

Dazed, confused & slightly sweaty I dragged my feet to the kitchen: ah, my utmost mundane daily routine.

It would be a lie to say that I intended to be on time for my English lesson today but I didn't mean to enter class at 9am when the lesson itself started at 8am, supposedly anyway but all praises to The Superior Being up in heaven, my English teacher was late by 30 minutes which meant that I was late for 30 minutes instead of an hour.

Nonetheless, I was ready by 8am & was making my way to the kitchen to have breakfast when something slimy, gross & fatty lizard on the wall.

"What. The. ?&%$#."

I was angry. Pissed. I can no longer tolerate this unremitting, such preternaturally annoying, perennial WAR with these creatures who do not deserve to even live!

Little not-midget-at-all assholes running around on the wall, eating out of the garbage to be fat & sickening to look at & then lay their eggs at God knows where in this house to ensure that their kind remains everlasting - such that sights of them reached an all time HIGH this year, all of which ranges from a tiny one to a big fat ass.

URGH I AM SO PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Who the hell gave these puny monsters the liberty to actually live in MY house like to hell with your name "house lizard" I don't want you living in my house I would rather you leave my house instead damnit!!

I sprayed insecticide on it & it fell to the floor. I sprayed again but it managed to escape to the back of our shoe rack. I then sprayed again at the back of that shoe rack & went inside my room to pack my bag...

Only to be greeted by the sight of this fat lizard lurking around on the floor in front of my room, like as though unharmed by the sprays of insecticide just now.

Okay fine, I admit, the insecticide was working because the lizard obviously lost it's ability to climb walls thus the reason why it was walking on the floor BUT it was still alive.

So I sprayed so much more insecticide on it such that a small puddle of insecticide formed on the floor & guess what it still did not die: it was suffering though squirming & such BUT IT DID NOT DIE!!!!

Hell have no fury like a woman's anger thus I kept on spraying & spraying until it stopped moving - it was not dead thought I could tell.

So I took 2 newspapers, lay 1 on top of the lizard, then another one covering half of the first newspaper & then install weights on each side so that the lizard is unable to escape.

I took 3 more newspapers to cover the little space beneath my closed room door so should the lizard actually make it out the maze of newspapers, it would be unable to enter my room.

By then, the clock on the wall showed 8:30am. I was more than late: I was VERY late.

Throughout the lesson, I worried so much. A lot can happen in 2 hours.

The lizard could have revived, it could be making its way to my room!!

Honestly speaking, I wonder why I say "A lot can happen in 2 hours" because fact is, I did not reach home at 10:30am, in fact it was way later than that.

But that's beside the point anyway.

The lizard is dead. Victory my friends, victory.

However, how many more of these tiny Trojans are still in this house of mine?

Perennial war, my friends, perennial.

2011-06-22T13:03:00.003+08:00

I'm a lazy person by nature. Here's to my dad being sceptical at the fact that I DID vacuum the house.

photospam

2011-06-22T12:25:00.005+08:00

The place where we store all our keys. Cute huh.

NOT SPARED. The ZARA bag (greatest apologies to Amni Sham).

SPARED. The Esprit umbrella. It is, after all, an umbrella.

NOT SPARED. I spilled my KOI yesterday. Yes, my dear friends, these are what is left of my holiday homework.

Messy table is messy but I have yet to be bothered by it. Give me an hour or so.

Zaki Sham's. I'm not even kidding you. He actually told my mum that he wanted it thus lead to her buying it for him. Hi cik abang are you a girl or a boy?

The house is in a mess from all the paint work dad is doing.

I love the orange walls! Such a fresh change from the boring crème ones yuck.

I just wish that mum would've been more daring & bought red or very dark brown --> future house colours.

2011-06-22T11:30:00.001+08:00

2011-06-16T09:03:00.005+08:00

Alas, the holiday is coming to an end & I have about a million work left untouched.

Sad, really how I had this great desire to kick my old lazy habits & start afresh during the holidays but found myself sticking to my unhealthy routine.

I really want to speed up time to the end of O Levels & just kick back & relax & do the things that I like & want to do like doodling, shopping, relaxing, hanging out & going on a holiday without having worried thoughts about unfinished assignments - which was exactly what happened during my short trip to Port Dickson.

The trip did not come by easy.

For one thing, we were faced with so many obstacles along the way like

1) a flat tire along the dark highway

2) a car engine that would not start which led to

3) the need to send it to a workshop at an ulu kampung area

4) of which the repairing took about 6 hours in the scorching hot sun & not forgetting

5) a mini salamander yes a mini salamander which crawled up my mum's legs & stayed in there for hmm about an hour? I know right.

Basically all I did there was eat, pray, love loljk eat, pray & swim more like.

I swam a total of 220 laps O.O & it made me realise how much I missed & loved swimming.

It's like, when I'm in the water, I feel weightless & nothing else exists except that moment right there as an energetic rush fills my body & I feel numb like I have not a problem in this world.

Magical huh.

The resort was on water & we could fish at the balcony okay well not really fish since we're not at the deep end of the ocean but instead we... urm... crabbed? Haha yes.

We went crabbing instead of fishing & in total dad caught about 60 crabs?! :O

Holy mackerel! So we ate crabs everyday & I am officially over & done with crabs.

When the last day came, I was extremely depressed at the thought of going back to reality: school, homework & all & it was with a heavy heart that I said goodbye to

bathing under the sky

"walking" on water

crabbing

eating crabs everyday (okay, I'm not so sad at this part actually)

sleeping under a canopy

swimming a lot

sitting outside & enjoying the sea breeze

cheap shopping at Giant lol but the pants seem boho okay

& I'm also officially about 2 shades darker.

Haiz!!!!!!!!!!!

I really anticipate the end of year. There'll be more shopping, greater holiday destinations & at a longer period of time. Oh & the best thing is? By then O Levels would be over :)

2011-06-06T01:42:00.001+08:00

I should stop before I get too attached. Again.

2011-06-05T22:40:00.009+08:00

I guess you could say that I felt more carefree than usual today.

The reason is simple: tomorrow's a Monday but there's no school & I need not worry about having to rush to finish all my homework that is to be handed in the next day.

Awesome feeling? Yes, pretty much: I feel like a new soul~

I strongly believe that it also has got to do with the fact that I'm dressed in red from head to toe & everybody knows that last year I was red from head to toe (bag, watch, water bottle) thus it comes to no surprise that I love that colour a lot.

In fact, I also felt a little bit like Marvel superhero The Flash!

I am currently ignoring my sister's BBM messages when the irony is that I started the conversation. Awesome huh. Now I feel like a superior being :B

"I owe you one"

Really? That's great because I'd love for you to stay. a. way.

I feel like life is better but having look through all my past photos, I dare say that I was happier back then, before she no. 1 & she no. 2 came in, before "it" happened, mainly before February. We were so united, so together.

Look now. We're in two.

This is the definition of human. More often than not we are always choosing our pride over anything else. More often than not, we are afraid to take the next step.

I guess this makes us all cowards & we know it but we aren't doing anything to avoid it.

Perhaps it's the conservative nature in us or perhaps it's something deeper.

Or maybe, it's as simple as getting too used to it such that it becomes a norm, a norm that we are unable to twist & change back to it's original form of, well, not being the norm.

I often wonder if I'll ever be brave enough to break out from this antiquated way of living, acting, thinking but I guess I'm just like everyone else. I am afraid. I am reluctant. I am awkward.

I look back at all my bad decisions & sadly, I found myself repeating some over & over again.

It's like the first bad consequence wasn't enough to wake me up.

So getting my priorities right has officially become my priority.

Amusing really how prioritising is the priority - it sounds like something out of a satire show but it actually kind of makes sense don't you think? Good Lord, I'm just running in circles.

Priorities:

1) God - Allah. I know I haven't been the best Muslim for the past few days. I've been sucked away by whispers of Satan & listening to him more than I listen to You. My prayers have been irregular & I broke my 5 full prayers cycle. I am sorry for I always end up disappointing You time & time again but I beg of You to not give up on me & I beg for forgiveness for my sinful actions.

2) Family - mum, dad, sister & brother. I cannot wait for the short trip! We have all been busy with school & work such that it's been awhile since we all sat around the round table & talk, reminiscent & laugh. I hope this upcoming trip would make up for all the lost time. Ps. Zaki, we should work hard for our last year & I know it's a killer to only have 2 weeks of holiday while our juniors run around happy with four full weeks but I'll say it's okay & we shall strive for at the end of the year, we're the ones burning our books when they're all gearing up for the new syllabus. Oh & don't forget the Nerf Gun war fuuyoh!

3) My very best friend - Nurleana Amira Ismail. I haven't been spending much time with you & our schedules seem to clash with one another but I assure you that I will be making more time for you. You're left with 3 months (?) in JSS & I'm sure that after that, what we're used to would change. You'll make it to Sec 5, that I am sure but I'll be out of school & we can no longer meet at that colourful table outside your class or have recess secretly outside the PBL Studio. I have made it my goal to dedicating more time to you because you have always been there, the one friend that stuck through from Sec One until now so I guess that's why you own the "best friend" tittle the longest huh haha happy ke happy sey!

So there, my top 3 priorities in life!

I tried watching a Japanese movie but I gave up halfway because it was too sad-romance for my taste. So it's safe to say that I prefer Korean ones because they're geniuses in creating romcoms.

& my aim today is to not go to sleep because truth be told, I hate sleeping & I want a romcom marathon though it's pathetic how I am lacking DVDs & have to pathetically rely on the small screen of my iPod to watch my movies.

I feel so ahjumma.

& can someone tell me WHY IS THERE A #PRAYFORSNSD TAG?!

2011-06-04T13:38:00.001+08:00

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(*.*) HUNGRY (*.*) (*.*) (*.*) (*.*) (*.*) (*.*) (*.*) (*.*)

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2011-06-04T13:34:00.002+08:00

I assure you that I am not responsible for this ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

shaman

2011-06-04T11:51:00.004+08:00

Our rationality would determine my future.

It feels like a Sunday mainly because my school week ended on Thursday so I said TGIT instead if TGIF. Hmm I realise this is kind of a lame opening to my blog post but what the hell.

Also, today we have been blessed with great weather my friends!

All praises to The Superior Being who created us & I am excited to see how my day would turn out.

I am pathetic on three counts:

1) I can never pour green tea from the jug without spilling it.

2) I am using the big ass Blackberry earpiece to listen to my iPod

3) because my earpiece split in half & I cannot find an ideal replacement.

Sad really. I am embarrassed to listen to music in public because the earpiece is really lorddamn ugly & too big for my ear holes.

I finally tried the much hyped about KOI on Thursday, the ice cream milk tea flavour & it tasted normal but a few MINUTES after finishing it, I wanted more, which leads me to conclude two things. Either

1) It contains some sort of drug, that makes it so addictive despite tasting like a normal bubble tea OR

2) they probably hired a shaman to cast spells on whoever who drinks it thus making them addicted to this satanic thing in a form of a plastic cup filled with choose-your-sugar-level sweet drink.

I'm going with the second one. I trust that hygiene (wait does it even fall under hygiene?) checks have been made on KOI (which is ironic seeing as how the news said that it contains melamine???). Okay fine actually I'm going with the second one because it's more fun to believe that some superior shaman is controlling the KOI market. Heh :B

The line was quite long but Afiqah said that it was short for a KOI queue which leads me to wonder how long is a long KOI queue when a short one is longer than the MacDonald lunch queue? Now that shall be The Bonus Question Of The Day.

Today I was not awaken by my mother's nagging mainly because I spent hours yesterday cleaning & organising my cupboard. I am loving the satisfied feeling of not having to hear my mother's morning nagging & having a clean room all thanks to my hard work.

I have also decided that I shall invest on black hangers because it's really ugly to see a bunch of non-colour coordinated hangers & clothes & ugh it's just so unorganised it kills me just by looking at it!! Also I should invest on posters or doodle more on drawing blocks to cover up all the emo phrases I wrote on my cupboard door when I was 11.

Yes, when I was 11 I was an emoshit who (fake) slashed herself (I used a metal ruler what the fish & chips!! -_______________-) & wrote phrases like "mistaked me for someone else" which is lorddamn stupid seeing as how the word "mistaked" does not even exist.

Good Lord forgive the pathetic being that I was.

I realise that I'm being more & more like my mother as the day goes by.

1) I brush my teeth up to 7 times a day (after every meal/snack/sweet drink or just when I feel like my teeth are dirty. Heh) such that I actually find joy in brushing my teeth.

2) I cannot stand cluttered areas or a messy bed or a messy anything.

3) Also, I contribute most to the declining amount of toilet paper mainly because I sanitise the toilet seat & after that cover it with large amount of toilet paper.

I think everyone should take after me & make number 3 a habit because hi people a million butts have kissed the toilet seat. Imagine if they had acne on their butt & you're actually sitting on their puss without even realising it. GROSS OR GROSS?!

I also realise that this particular post contains a lot of sub parts. Hmm hmm hmm.

I cannot wait to go on my short holiday trip to Port Dickson.

The resort is on water & we can fish at our room itself & the bathroom floor is made of transparent glass so it's like you're standing on water!! & it feels dangerous because you'll never know if a pervert suddenly rows his boat below you or if the glass is strong enough but heck that makes things even more exciting right!

& there's nothing at Port Dickson (they don't even have a shopping mall err.................) which is great for a short break from this concrete jungle & ever-expanding malls Singapore has.

It also means that my days there would be spent with great nothingness = boredom = happiness because I'm happiest when I'm bored.

I bet hundreds of trees (realistic thinking) have been killed to make my holiday homework.

It's crazy!!! You take one stack of it multiplied by the amount of Sec 4 Express students in my school & it's no doubt that hundreds of trees have been killed.

I'm not even joking here.

I had pizza hut with J'me, Ridhuan & Kai Yuan the other day & I realise that I am such a loser because I fail at Monopoly Deal. I don't get the game at all :(

Talking about Kai Yuan, we have been bitching like bitchy bitches continuously for 2 days it's not even normal!

& I bought this pomegranate green tea the other day because it looked cute + it was on promotion & I am a cheapo who buys anything on promotion (yes, story of Arinah Sham).

Cute right! With the tag on it & all. It's too sweet though but that's beside the point anyway.

2011-05-29T10:41:00.003+08:00

I don't want to be in love alone.

Yesterday was by far the most unproductive day in terms of studies but productive in terms of shopping. I finally gained a perfect pair of jeans.

All hail to Pull & Bear though it's sad that they do not have discounts for that particular jeans of mine :"""""""""""""""(

Topshop fails me once again. It's like I'm not fated to buy things from Topshop.

Have $$ = nothing I'd love to buy. No $$ = have loads of things I'd like to buy from there.

It's a messed up balanced equation that does not involve the calculation of moles or concentration.

& I thought Chemistry had the worse type of equations. Damn.

I must have tried on about 20 pairs of jeans yesterday.

At MNG alone I tried on about 8. So basically, I worked out by trying on all those jeans.

#likeamaharajah & it's actually more tiresome than you think!!!!!!!!!!

Okay damn, that just makes me seem like I have really low stamina.

MT O Levels tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I have no intention of blogging about it.

It's all so mundane & overrated to keep talking about studies.

It's like meh everyone rants about the same thing & feel the same thing & want to get it over & done with it's all the same basis of opinion. Boring!

I think that there's something wrong with my body system.

I keep pooping after I eat I bet I contribute most to the flushing in the toilet.

Thus, I suggest to myself (haha k this just makes me seem like a deranged person) that I shall not eat much before the exams or time would just be wasted on emptying my bowels.

I CANNOT WAIT FOR NEXT WEEK!

It's the last week of school & on Thursday I'll be meeting my tall skinny bitch & lose my virginity..................................... to KOI.

Yes, confession of the day my friends: I am a KOI virgin & I don't even know where would I be able to get a cup of KOI or how much it costs or the flavours available. I am such a fail.

& on Saturday, I'll be going off to Malaysia to visit the tailor for our Hari Raya outfits.

I know right, the fasting month isn't even here yet but my mother has already made reservations at the tailor shop.

This is a classic example of a Malay mother in the 21st century who refuse to suffer going to Geylang during the month of Ramadhan & have a battle with the crowd.

Grey, windy Sunday mornings sipping hot green tea are the best & I think I have an obsession with Japanese treats yum yum yum *^-^*

2011-05-28T00:09:00.002+08:00

You know that feeling of trying to preserve a weekend night by staying up despite being so tired because you know that if you close your eyes & enter the world of dreams, you'll wake up to a new day & you have so many work in front of you or school or extra classes?

That is precisely what I'm doing right now. My eyes hate me.

For awhile there, I actually blanked out & my train of thoughts were cut off like as though a kamikaze came & scooped out all my brain cells.

The lighting is terrible, I am straining my eyes in this dark room & the too bright light from the computer screen is just blinding me.

So why, despite all the whining, am I still blogging?

Honestly, I have no idea.

What would be nice right now is to be in a place with a warm sort of ambient surrounded with orange lights that serves good, strong coffee - enough to get my engine running & have a burst of inspiration to ignite the creative side of me.

Then again, all would not be complete if I do not have a Moleskine by my side.

Everyone KNOWS that Moleskines are the best sketchbooks in the world. Damn, I have to get one soon.

I plan to get a tumbler tomorrow so that come Monday, I'll be going to school with a cup of hot cappuccino in hand & a bright smile knowing that I need not gulp down my daily coffee but instead savour it's bitter-sweet taste.

I suddenly feel pessimistic.

If you ask me, I have about 10 001 negative things in my mind that I want to rant out about but I have a quota on my level of bitchiness & I believe that I almost exceeded this quota today.

I have to praise myself for my excellent self control I deserve a standing ovation.

Mini lizard chapter 24561234.

It seems that my house has been hit by a wave of lizards it's gross especially the one that came into my room urgh urgh urgh. It's only May but I bet I've seen about 12 lizards already which is extremely not normal because the norm is 3 lizards.

It seems that we have a 75% increase. Eew.

You know what I hate most? It's videos that load then stop then load again like whuuuuu t why can't you just load yourself all in one go?

Okay nah I kid you videos that have problematic loading is not the thing that I hate most of course because that would just be so overrated.

Hmm... Come to think of it what exactly is the thing that I hate most?

I guess the best answer for now is:

STAY TUNED.

2011-05-27T18:28:00.002+08:00

I can't make my own decisions with precisions.

I'd say that there is a fine line between simply not caring & not being too clingy.

Perhaps I am both because for the past few days, you shall do what you want to do with whoever concerns you & I shall just sit on the sidelines & nod my head in approval.

After all, who am I to make decisions for you in your life?

"It's the start of the holidays!" statuses like these flood my NewsFeed but I am still attending school for a week & later on on the last week of June.

June holidays decreased by 50% but it's all for the O Levels. Aku redha.

& Monday is the MT paper - I am terrified at the thought of it. An A1 is a must.

I guess one prominent thing about this year is that I am so numb to 6 days of school & staying in school for lessons adding up to about 8/9 hours.

In fact, I have grown so immune to it that I can say come what may, come what may.

Nonetheless, this does not necessarily mean that I enjoy it. Heh.

I am a walking contradiction. It's not because I am unsure of my opinions but more to the fact that most of the time, I think too much & my opinions differ from time to time.

I guess this is what they call "a teenager growing up."

In fact, thinking too much has actually raised problems in my life.

However, the bonus question of the day is: How do I DECREASE my thinking?

So the other day, one of the most epic thing in life happened to J'me (J-A-I-M-E HAHAHA) which was was somewhat related to me since I was next to her thus getting me involved in that epic moment since I was the one who actually pointed out The Thing That Made It All Epic.

In fact, it was such an epic moment that it brought the Little Miss Muffet (sat on a tuffet) nursery rhyme into a whole new level because for that day, J'me was like Miss Muffet only she wasn't eating any kind of custard or porridge.

Yes, my dear readers, a gigantic spider the size of my......................thumb (okay fine but I mean it's kind of big for a spider to be the same size as my thumb!) landed on J'me & crawled up her uniform & under her collar & only God knew where it came from.

When I pointed out the spider, J'me was sceptical mainly because I am Arinah Sham & I pretty much am known for my................lies.

Okay, not lies that's so degrading to my image more like my acting - drama mama moments that mislead people into thinking that what is in fact false is the truth.

So anyway, it was crawling & I screamed (good Lord forgive me for bringing such an embarrassment to myself) & somewhat literally jumped out of my chair - yes, all three motions in one as J'me soon realised that this time round I was Arinah Sham, the human being, not Arinah Sham, the fake burlesque-wannabe.

In simpler terms, we caused a commotion at the start of the Physics lesson with such adrenaline rushing through our veins as we were in a shaking-hopping motion (yes, the spider was on J'me but I was being dramatic for more special effects) of being extremely terrified over this possibly venomous arachnid that the excitement stayed through until the end of the lesson & we didn't need to depend on Pocco to keep us awake.

& no, the shaking-hopping motion did not even cause a budge on the eight legs of that sinister being but it was Jia Wei, the class monitor from China, who swiped it off J'me.

What entertainments we were, what shame we brought to ourselves thanks to being, in Singlish terms, SIBEH AA!

Apart from that, nothing's new & my life is still boring as ever.

I hope you all enjoy your June holidays!

thoughts & thoughts

2011-05-22T21:57:00.005+08:00

I am often amazed at how big an influence music has on our life.

It defines who you are in a sort of way, it becomes a common denominator for a few people - which is really evident when idols meet their fans. All voices become one screaming out their idols' names.

Since music defines you, how about me?

I don't listen to a specific type of genre.

Does this make me unsure of who I am or do I have a big personality?

Or is it not as in-depth as I make it out to be - perhaps I just appreciate art?

I used the lyrics from Arctic Monkeys' Dangerous Animals as an inspiration for my class tee & most of my art. So I guess music has a good influence on me.

However, I flinch at how some lyrics contain harsh words, most popular one starting with the infamous "f" & I cringe & become uneasy.

Nonetheless, I listen to it because of the good rhythm.

Here, I am sceptical - how do we expect children to not use coarse language when the songs that they're exposed to contain them & has gone mainstream?

I shiver at the thought of how the future generation would communicate.

I am expanding my taste in music & welcoming Malay into my life.

I guess I have been very stupid to say I dislike anything to do with Malay for it will always be a part of me, no matter how many Chinese friends I make, I am still a Malay girl.

I cannot run away from who I am, the family I was born to.

So I shall embrace who I am because I see the deteriorating grade in my Malay language & I am ashamed for I remember that back in primary school, I had a Chinese teacher teach the language of Malay.

I see many of my Malay friends giving up on Malay & wish to have nothing to do with it.

It upsets me because if it is not us, then who would love the language of our previous generations?

I feel like I have let down the ghosts of my great-grandparents.

My dear friends, be not ashamed of your race or your language for we are who we are & we cannot run away from the reality of it all for at the end of the day, we are only fooling ourselves.

Don't live in a lie.

I miss you

2011-05-21T23:48:00.002+08:00

Dear you,

I am so sorry for all that I did.

You have been nothing but good to me but I did otherwise to repay you kindness.

What we had, that strong relationship, went down the drain all because I was foolish.

I was selfish.

I was stupid.

Now, looking at you, I am filled with guilt.

I don't deserve you, you deserve better.

montagut chuen

2011-05-21T23:40:00.004+08:00

So I was walking around Harris & stumbled over a big ass Molsekine with examples of what people do with their Moleskine & I came across this really cool person with a really cool Tumblr with really cool art & I know it's lame to say cool to almost everything but check this person out:

http://montagutchuen.tumblr.com/

Can anyone say #MINDBLOWN?

2011-05-21T21:25:00.006+08:00

You've got to reach out a little more.

Saturday & I spent it with well, nothing much really.

I came home from school exhausted & fell asleep in an awkward position on the sofa - my legs were hanging by the side - & missed my 4:20pm KBS World show (haha yes the kpop fangirl is me is slowly creeping out again but I assure you that I won't go crazy over them up to the point of being labelled "an insane fan" who buys their key chains, files & good Lord even printed Tees. Never. Gonna. Happen.)

I have a reason for why I'm suddenly somewhat into kpop again, though not as hardcore, but I admit guilty to downloading some new tracks.

The reason is simple really: BEAST HAS A COMEBACK HFELJHLWFOW.

Yes, BEAST, the band that I shed my tears for when they came to Singapore & I was unable to meet them, unable to meet Gi Kwang (my so-called raison d'etre at that time. I know right please bury me in a sea of seashells now).

Today was the last day for my J2 mentors & the saddest thing was that MY J2 mentor was absent: not because he skipped it or what of course.

He gave J'me & I a card & chocolate each & the reality of never seeing each other again suddenly became so real so I guess it was a good thing that he wasn't present because my emotional side might have gotten the better of me = cry = total unglam moment because nobody cried just now HAHAHA.

& no it wasn't because he didn't know how to spell my name, I assure you.

The reason behind "Arenah" was written in the card:

HAHAHAHA #WHAT_THE!

So thank you very much, Wei Lin, for everything & anticipate the card that we made for you!

Though I honestly doubt that he'd stumble upon my blog but yes the card will reach his hands.

I hope.

The bus ride home was insane because the back door was facing some sort of problem & it had to open & close 7 times before being able to REALLY close the back door.

Hilarious really. & annoying too. & it was SBS 8976H - the 154 bus that I always end up taking 85% of the time when I take 154. It's like I was fated to have it as my vehicle or something omailord.

& the rain was heavy today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE HEAVY RAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think my school looks non-Singapore-ish here. Gotta give a +1 to the pine trees lined up in front of the school.

I did not go shopping today because 1) Leana couldn't make it & 2) it was a lazy Saturday for me & the weather was perfect for a lazy Saturday.

I strolled around JP & I gained 4 more things that I wanted on my to-buy list:

1) a tumbler

2) a coffee cup (Starbucks, of course)

3) (fake) polaroid picture to be stuck onto

4) a Moleskine but oh wait a Moleskine sketchbook has been on my list since forever.

So right now I'm contemplating: should I splurge on clothes or these?

Anyway, due to the fact that my mother gave up on cooking, I made my own dinner & it was yummy hehe basically it's eggs + prawns + mushroom + milk + spices - YES SPICES - which totally added a zing & a bing to it. Yum I can be a chef now so who wants to marry me already? :B

& yesterday I had a taste of Macau. It's the first time I tried these egg tarts.

Sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet~

Nur Kasih The Movie was... not movie material. The storyline was meh & didn't make much sense or impact it was more like a drama serial cut & cramped into the 1h 30mins of the movie.

However, due to the fact that I had no great expectation for it, I don't really have much to criticise & staring at the cute boy called "Mat" made the movie a little better & of course Remy Ishak & Tizz Zaqya who are drop dead gorjuzzzzz people.

One thing I hate about Malaysia's cinemas is the small difference between the seat in front & behind of you & it was just my luck that 2 tall men had to sit in front of me & one of them had a shaggy hair-do so for half of the movie, I had to rely on my bag for the extra height but it was so uncomfortable for my butt that I decided "Whatever, I bet my mother's gonna get it on DVD or something."

So the world did not end today. I wonder who started the rumour because my sister's friend, who was Christian, got angry over it saying that it was an insult to Christians.

Me? I'm just glad the world did not end because I want to get married, have a job & decorate my own house which is the main point of wanting to get married & having a job.

UNIHORNYCORN, Twitter & 19 May: 3 things that go together & would probably be a topic of our children's SS textbook. This immature girl widely criticized Malays.

In fact, just go to one Malay person's Twitter account & I'm sure he or she would have retweeted what she tweeted.

It's stupid really to criticise a race on your NON-PRIVATE Twitter account using strong terms (the F word, of course) just because of one or two Malay people?

RACIST REALLY. How would you feel if I judged your mother on your immature actions?

Plus, under the Sedition Act, Chapter 290 of the Statutes of Singapore, this girl obviously committed a crime & is inapplicable for subsection 2 for she only apologised to SOME Malays.

What? Because not all Malay people are human thus do not deserve your apology?

Please just go get charged at court. You're Gan Huai Shi of 2011, girl. Thanks.

Everyone's talking about how great Beastly is but I have yet to watch it good Lord I'm forever left on the shelf.

back!

2011-05-18T17:58:00.005+08:00

Run with the weight of a new day on your shoulders.

Electric. I feel like my fingers are running their own show.

I am absolutely elated - with energy buzzing through because all praises to the Lord, the internet connection is back which also means that my dead blog has entered a resurrection state.

It's amazing how i can survive 2 months without the computer.

You have to thank Blackberry for it's great data plan for it kept me updated with youths of this 21st Century for the past two months.

Yes, so I heard that the whole Gossip Girl cast is using Android phones but screw that I love my Blackberry a lot more than I love... Pineapples.

& that's something because for the past month I have pretty much murdered siblings of Spongebob's home for pineapples pretty much have become my staple food.

THANK YOU LORD FOR THE PINEAPPLES.

Also, I realise that if I do not wash my feet immediately upon reaching home, they WILL stink.

Like, for example, right now. The fumes of my stinky feet have travelled into my nostrils.

Gross right? But right now I'm just too excited to care.

Let's be unhygienic for a day!

Anyway, I have decided to bring down the shoutmix box since nobody comments anyway & with the efficient existence of Twitter & Facebook, all is possible & never say never.

I also found out the reason why I have frequent shoulder aches & it comes in the sinister form of a BLACK SPORTS BRA. okay yes so this thing that supposedly is meant to support my boobs are actually the cause of me having the worse shoulder aches ever.

Good Lord.

& worse part is that I don't feel comfortable wearing those normal bras or push-up bras because THEY GIVE NO SUPPORT & I tend to move a lot.

It's just something in me you know, maybe a curse maybe a blessing, but I cannot survive a day without urm shaking around... or acting like a spy. Heh.

So guess what, rejoice for this Friday I am going to miss my tuition!!

Yes, I have a private tutor now & I'm still unsure of what her name is (hah) since she literally comes to teach & has no room for small talks. Seriously.

I guess this is kind of good because I won't sidetrack & my Friday nights would actually end up being productive (& only Lord knows how Friday night is the night of the mother of unproductivism) but if you ask me, I think she's a little sad.

For one thing, she actually still tutored me on a Good Friday & during The Royal Wedding day - & if I was her, I'd probably have fled the country for a short weekend getaway with my friends or something seeing as how if I was her age, I am perfectly legal to get drunk or go skinny dipping at the beach or something.

NOT THAT I want to go skinny dipping but that's just an example. Of course.

& her father actually sends her to my door, wait for her to enter & then go away.

Same thing for when she's going home - he waits for her at the door.

LIKE SHE WAS SIX when in actual fact, she's about 21. Good Lord bless her soul.

So yes this Friday, I'm going to channel the inner Malay-lover in me & watch Nur Kasih The Movie HA HA HA ya but I'm serious when I say that I'm going at my own will.

Remy Ishak is hot well actually nowadays I think Malay boys are kind of hot so yes welcome new Arinah Sham.

& anyway, hate turns to love so I'd rather not hate Malay boys.

If you get what where I'm going here :B

(:3 btw this <<<<<--- is a bunny emoticon

Apparently, not much people know it.

2011-04-03T13:03:00.000+08:00

Oman its been so bloody long since I blogged anyway I just feel like haha blogging since well ranting out about the world on twitter is really annoying.
Yeah like I totally 100% regret following some people on twitter but see I can't unfollow them since they're, like, my "friends" or something like that.

Well in other words? Stay silent in sadness.
But seriously do you know how totally annoying some people's tweets are?
Especially those that go like "heeeeey good morning ok I'm gonna bathe now" & then 10 bloody minutes later they're like "done with bathing" then "combing my hair!" Then "ok I'm gonna eat breakfast now!" Then "oh guess what I'll be going out then!" Then "okay so I'm waiting for the bus!" "Boarded the bus!" "Tapped my ez-link" "sitting in the bus!" "Reaching!"

LIKE WHAT THE BLOODY NAKED MOLE HELL I HONESTLY GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOUR EVERY MOVE psh & the worse thing is you can't unfollow them since they're your friend, one way or another, like I know right the despair that can't be spared!

Plus I think its pretty stupid to say "hello twitter!" & then at the end of the day "alright, goodbye then!" Like hell person this isn't a freaking MSN conversation you don't have to sign in & sign out start with a hello & say a goodbye like HONESTLY DOOD!

Yeah as you can see I'm actually smart enough to rant out on my dead blog instead of spamming it all on my twitter account because twitter isn't blog thus the 140 word limit but some people just don't bloody get that oh holy lord I'm saying it all in one breath.

Haha so basically I'm just letting the steam off because Sec 4 is just bloody packed & filled with drama. I used to think that all them ex Sec 4s were just being melodramatic but I totally get it now.

My Sec 1 juniors are just -.- & I'm not really insulting any of them specifically so if I get TRC then what the hell really I'm just saying out my thoughts not being racist or discriminating them anyway.

So really Sec 1s if you wanna quit ya just go ahead I honestly won't miss you at all seriously I love my Sec 2s & 3s but sorry I have to be honest that I have no love for the Sec 1s ya whatever.

Then there's that person oh god I totally dislike you!!!!
You go around acting like you have this powerful swag that everyone's just kissing your ass & love having you around when really you're just a failure Arinah Sham clone its really pathetic how you try so freaking hard to be me with your words & bloody AA Actions when really you're just a sad case of a loner who thinks you have it all good lord I dislike you so much just the sight of you makes me wna roll my eyes back & forth because you're so plastic Barbie is a human being thanks to you!

& you think I like you so much? Oh please. If thoughts could kill I bet you'd be electrocuted by the biometrix a million times already.
JUST STOP COPYING ME & FIND ORIGINALITY YOU MOFO.

*rolls eyes*

Don't get me wrong by this post. I'm not like facing some sort of tumult of emotions & go around with a pen knife slashing my wrist or anything (god that's so drama) I'm actually happy everyday no matter! Haha ya I'm a walking contradiction like that.

& 4/3 was so cute on April's Fool with our red bow ties hehe & I'm just passing ard the bunny love in 4/3 everybody be lovin' bunnies fffit ffit!!! -----> fffit fffit is the sound bunnies make & all you sceptics be chewin' on pumpkin seeds!

Hahahahah k

2011-03-18T13:16:00.001+08:00

So my internet is officially screwed & dad's gonna renew it in April I think which is in 2 weeks into woo Fibre or what's that called lol yeah so basically chances of me updating my blog proper is really really low.

My twitter is more updated & yeap I changed my twitter name since it is so darn common, apparently, to cancel out the vowels in your name thus the new name: @zebunnyninjakid yaoz people.

Yeah, 'cause I'm actually a bunny ninja hahahahah k 8)

P.s & to guest: Both. Can't forever keep asking parents for money right! :D

2011-03-03T22:49:00.000+08:00

Things to get soon:

1) Paul Frank Lip Smackers
2) Moleskine Sketchbook
3) Victoria's Secret Love Spell
4) Schwarzkopf Shampoo
5) L'oreal Toner + Night Cream
6) 2 more notebooks

Omg don't you think that it's so sad how much I stuff I need to buy?
Lol yes pleez pity me. & the worse thing is no. 3:
The Victoria's Secret Love Spell. It, like, can only be found at a far away place omg wwhyyyy are you so pathetic Jurong area?! :(

I spent a lot this week like lol just Monday I spent a whopping $30 on a freaking Monday!!! Which left me some what dry for the next few days ooo emokid life then today I spent lol $20 & this is not inclusive of the other days ok.
Meh. I have to start saving.

& I think blogging using my phone is just so much more fun because lol it feels like I'm writing using some sort of typewriter how the screen moves & how the words are in courier new & such like whoa koolio man!

Ok I'm supposedly supposed to be doing my stupid A Math Differentiation homework but ohman the tangents just make me so confused :(
& I've decided to shun away my English homework trololol~

Just now was Sports Day!
& I am just number one Banana Boat fan now because thanks to them I am one of those special few who did not get sunburns yeay so happy ^-^

J'me & I wanted to fly kites after that but alas the weather did not permit us to do so so we ended up in JP & decided to go into every art & beauty shop.
We also made a promise to make things more interesting which is:
"We promise to buy something" lol it was damn zuub because we actually said it out loud in a store (y)

In the end I bought yeayeyyeyeyey Nature Republic face mask & J'me bought some cool oil blot thing which was so sexy shmexy artsy fartsy you just can't bare to throw away the cover after you're done with it kind of thing.

I thought of getting the Paul Frank Lip Smackers but decided not to because my tube of Vasaline Cherry is still half full & I don't use that much make up anyway.

& maaaaan I'm so excited to go shopping for Graduation Dinner or prom lololol ya fat chance eh but nonetheless the thought gives me total spasms of joy!! :D
I am so going to get a sexy shmexy long dress form Haji Lane!

I just want to shop these few days.
Haizzzz, such use & abuse of "Retail Therapy."

2011-03-01T16:31:00.002+08:00

These past few days, I haven't been in the mood.

You screw me up, I'm so disappointed in who you have become.

How many more tears must it take to finally get you to fall back into place?

& be that boy we all loved & adored once more?

4

2011-02-27T11:07:00.005+08:00

& for everything you do, I blame on you.

IT WAS AHSUMMMMMMO;DSFHNSDOFNH;OIHNFAOSDIHBF!!!

I AM NUMBER FOUR WAS AWESOME!

It was great because Alex Pettyfer was such a hotstuff & he pulled of the American accent well & the last time I watched him in action was in Wild Child but holy kamolly look at how broader his shoulders are & THAT BODY!! ISDFHUISLFIU!!

But the hotter person in the show was Tersa Palmer aka Number 6 (or was it 5?) lol I'm not sure I was too transfixed by her hotness she was so darn hot the moment she came out Wei Qing suddenly sat up straight & was quiet (before that he was giving all the irrelevant "wtf?" "eh holy shit why is it like this?" comments).

The show wasn't so action-packed I feel like it was more focused on teenage love stories instead of alien action but heck, it was awesome anyway.

The storyline was somehow predictable but the ending was not really predictable?

Haha failure at movie reviews.

Nonetheless, if you're reading this & you're contemplating on whether you want to watch it or not, I say GO WATCH IT! It was worth every dollar of a weekend ticket.

I'm already thinking of all the stuff I want to do after O Levels:

1) Get a Moleskine (if I get it now, I might be distracted)

2) Burn all my textbooks (pleasurably evil)

3) Buy clay & make jewelery (shit I can't wait!)

4) Buy acrylic paint at Kinokuniya ALONE (so sexy shmexy to shop for art stuff alone)

5) DRESS LIKE A HIPPY! HAHAHA!

Omg I seriously cannot wait to get this dreaded thing we call Os over & done with.

My Common Test 1 results were kind of very very bad for Chemistry.

I flunked it full time & there's SPA next week! Oh God.

I passed my Physics haha yes well it's a major improvement seeing as how I used to get F9.

I think I screwed up History so my hope is all on SS.

& right now, I need pancakes :B

2011-02-20T12:38:00.007+08:00

I'm going to say this once & once only, for which I will instantly regret after that:

JUSTIN BIEBER Y U LIKE SO HOT NOW.

lao (po + sai + gong)

2011-02-20T11:01:00.004+08:00

I'll take you out though I am hardly worth your time.

Whoa it's been almost two weeks since I last blogged!

That's the life of a 16 year old girl living in Singapore yo.

Forever busy, forever drowning in homework & sometimes even forever alone (haha no link!).

So guess what, apparently I've become a twitter whore :O

Yes I know right! I used to think Twitter was only for the stereotypical but looky looky, I not only have a Twitter account, I'm officially a Twitter whore holy kamolly!

That's so not Teoy (*looks at Ginnie* hahaha).

Follow me! http://twitter.com/#!/arnhshm haha it's so lame to say follow me.

Reputation ruined instantly alright.

I really pity my followers though, it's like total spam since I always end up gossiping with people there & if I deleted all the gossip I would have maybe 1/5 the tweets that I have now.

& although yesterday started out bad, (as some of the 4/3 people saw, haha state of mental breakdown was so random & embarrassing), I actually enjoyed my Saturday fully!

Why? BECAUSE I FREAKING WHEN TO UNIVERSAL STUDIO SINGAPORE!

MSDIOFHWELFJRAOPFJPEWJKPAWERFPEWRKAFPPDKW

EXCITEMENT OVERLOAD!

It totally took my mind off everything that bothered me & it was crazy fun!

The cheese popcorn was surprisingly overly oily (omg say that 10 time 10 times faster) but who cares I had the time of my life riding the Battlestar Galatica ride 3 times, it was like freaking surreal to have the feeling of you might end up losing your life riding this thing kind of thing.

I was at the peak of fear when it was going down, going up is not scary at all but going down? It was like holy kamolly!! the seat belt thing is just going to pop out anytime soon!

& after taking that ride, all the other rides seem are just not scary at all.

The Mummy could not even compare to it, not one bit.

I liked the ambiance of The Mummy ride though but the wait was crazy & I felt so claustrophobic because the ceilings were low & people were standing too close to me it was crazy.

It was like being trapped in a mouse hole with no sign of light & the amount of oxygen minimizing by the minute.

I didn't want to leave that place at all & there are not much pictures since we were all too preoccupied in being 8 again to be snapping the pictures away.

& one totally gross thing: you know those men posing as Egyptian Gods? With their body totally exposed such that you can see THEIR FREAKING CAN'T-TAKE-MY-EYES-OFF-THEM ABS? Okay so one of them had armpit hair which could be as long as your short fringe no kidding!

It was so freaking long it was longer than my brother's hair okay eew.

Monday was Valentines Day & it was all nice & sweet haha okay no I was very tired on Monday I slept through a whole lot of lessons & could not stay awake during ASAP.

But it was a nice Monday, I felt great because I gave out 46 Valentines Day cards, handmade by ME! & I stayed up until almost 3am in the morning to make them all.

I feel a total sense of accomplishment, sing for me o church choir (hahahawtf?).

& texting the other half of Arigin Origins is always crazy.

I wonder if there'll be a time when we don't laugh omg lao po lao sai lao gong hahah "people go hospital to give birth to baby, you go toilet to give birth to your husband" HAHA MAKES NO SENSE AT ALL I couldn't stop laughing & was shaking like ______ & the typo error was just totally overloaded.

I realise that I'll end up missing all the people I disliked/feel irritated with & that at the end of the day, some of them end up being the people I want to tell everything to.

I also realise that most of the time, the people who we end up feeling most disappointed at, are the people who we loved & once treasured.

You fail me but you are not worth my tears. So don't think that I'm crying over you.

"can we exchange?"

2011-02-06T10:27:00.005+08:00

This is my last second chance.

Ok it's crazy but every time I want to put a full stop on my sentence my finger tends to wander off to the alt button & every time I press the letter "I" I forgot that I have to press shift first - opz signs that I am using my phone to much. Gotta stop!

O shucks, there I go again pressing the alt button. Zoob is a zoob.

Holy shit it's the last day of the week & my homework?

Well don't get me started. I seem to have no sense of creativity or inspiration for my essay :(

Meh I seriously don't think I look 16: I think I look 12.

I walk into Topshop & the people look at me like I'm gonna end up stealing the clothes instead of buying them. & not forgetting the shock facial expressions when I pull out my F3 card.

Stereotypes are stereotypes, this is the sad life of a 155cm girl :(

& it doesn't only happen there.

It happens almost everywhere from Swensens to Zara EVERYWHERE.

Then if I'm with my mum, they're all suddenly licking our boots like wtf discrimination against the short people of the world!

Omg porn stars are dominating weheartit like whuuuuuu t please go to a pron website to do your dirty stuff I'm not interested in your big boobs & "sexy" bunny outfit.

I'M NOT EVEN A MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN.

Okay I think I have no life at all.

I'm just spamming everyones inbox with lame text messages & the phrase "arnhshm just sent you a nudge" is my favourite no doubt everyone's getting that phrase in their inbox sooner or later!

I think I'm going to get a Moleskine next month hehehe & glitters & cut out all my Seventeen magazines because that magazine sucks no doubt!

I'm going to have one day to myself where I just unleash the artsy fartsy in me woooooooo *church choir at the back*

Unfortunately, I have to wait next month? I only have $10 in my wallet :(

Sad life is sad.

& the thought of no free day next week makes me wanna die.

I don't look forward to school at all. Can we rewind to last week where we're all anticipating the Chinese New Year holiday & celebration & such?

I want what I want.

I also want a puppy but I can't keep dogs.

& even if I could, my mum would be 100% against it - she has a phobia of furry animals at home.

Can I skip school for a year like Serena did in Gossip Girls?
I would get a job & shop & watch Pretty Little Liars, party & get drunk - k nah screw that I'm a pure girl & just shop shop shop till my wardrobe explodes.

Man, that's the life I want to live! Life of the Upper East Side!

Okay but honestly, I don't want to go to school or live in the West.

It's just crazy. Murders, raping, MASS raping, MASS raping & then posting the video on internet, crazy alcohol intake, SEX, MASS SEX, partying it's such a crazy stereotypical world they live in I'm happy with the conservative Asian lifestyle thank you very much.

What can I say? I love my virginity ofyeah love your virginity ma gurllzzz hehehe (Y)

legend

2011-02-05T12:44:00.001+08:00

Guy's a legend. You see it, you know it's him. OMG WANT PLEASE!

2011-02-05T12:02:00.002+08:00

gotta love Guess' ads :D

4 day weekend

2011-02-04T21:28:00.003+08:00

So much faith & then you just threw it away.

HE HE HEYYYYYYYYY HOW'S EVERYONE ENJOYING THE CNY HOLIDAYS?

Me? I'm just forever doing nothing at home like somewhat literally.

Girl with no life has no life please.

It's basically a cycle. Tv, Facebook, Sleep = THIS IS THE LIFE.

I LOVE BEING BORED!!! :D

No seriously I do! & ya homework is just shunned away in my yellow file.

See the irony of it all? How can such a cheerful colour store so many dreadful things?

It's only 1 month & my file is officially full. Hello O Levels year (Y)

Ok I am ultra pissed at my glasses because it stains all the time.

Smudges & all; it's really annoying my vision is blurred!

I want to get those lenses the whatsitcalled lenses oh you know the one that can withstand smudges & cracks & protect your eyes from the wind.

Wow such propaganda works for me! It actually tempts me!

Ahhh, "temptation." I have to write an essay on that.

& okay, I'm trying to make myself actually like my English teacher despite the fact that well, he's... Okay I must not say, it'll just land me in a humongous controversial mess.

OPZ NO NEED FOR ANYMORE DRAMA IN MY LIFE!

Okay so yesterday, I went to some old train station which is apparently under Malaysia or something like that? & it really did seem like I was in Malaysia despite the fact that I was still in Singapore. Like powerr~r I was in two countries at a time.

I had breakfast there with my family, aunt, uncle & two little cousins as well as my grandmother.

BUT HOLY SHIT THE PLACE SMELT LIKE CAT PEE!!!

& haha the food seemed burnt meh xP

After that we went to Marrina Barrage & the wind was shit awesome & there was this octopus kite which was omg like 3 freaking times my height!! I mean ya I'm short but 3 times my height is shit crazy big!!

Fly with the wind means to fly with the wind~

Facebook brings me so many pleasures.

I get pleasure laughing at the ultra broken English of some people, the hahaha "photography" (FAYUUUUL) & of course the pretty girls hehehe stalk chio bu is more fun than stalking hot boys! Well actually I don't think anyone stalks boys, that's just too.. slutty.

Or gay if a boy does that.

I hate how laggy my internet is on Friday nights. It just makes me want to pull out a pig's tail or start an urm ant massacre or something like that.

IT'S CRAZY! But I have to wait until April - that's when mum is upgrading the internet oyea!

Ok I think the Tamil show that my brother is watching (yeap he IS WATCHING A TAMIL SHOW MY BROTHER) is super annoying because the sound effects are crazy like you know those free ringtones in your phone that are meant as alarms.

I knooooow, super annoying.

You know what else is annoying? Typinggggggg likeeeeeee thissssssssss issssssss annoyinggggggggg tooooooooooo theeeeeee maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!

Phrases like these are annoying too:

1) You stole my heart

2) Can we pretend that airplanes in night skies are shooting stars?

3) I love you & only you. You're the only one for me.

4) I promise, we will be together forever.

5) If you love her, tell her. Don't keep it in your heart.

BUT it's these kinds of phrases that get the most likes on Facebook.

Talking about likes on Facebook, I liked a whole lot of pages.

The one about changing Q33 NYC into a size 72 & then into Wingdings = the Microsoft Word Conspiracy totally freaked me out!!! HAHA SHIT THAT'S SO WIKILEAKS!

& then the worse thing happened: I actually clicked the like button wrongly so I ended up liking phrases that I did not intentionally want to like - like the page that says that a boy should marry a girl who replies his text during Pretty Little Liars & a girl should marry a guy who replies her text while watching some boyish show I forgot what it was.

LIKE WTF. That's totally contrary to my believes!

& not forgetting ultra corny with cheese on the top.

& that's not the only one, there were more!! Okay so if you see some corny phrases that I happened to like on Facebook, please know that it was purely accidental & I had no intention of liking it. OKAY BEST JUST CLEARING UP MY NAME.

Living the good reputation 8)

& I have officially decided that I love the 8s smileys like 8) & :8 LIKE SO CUTE PLEEZ OK THAT SHALL BE MY NEW THAAANG~

2011-02-03T19:43:00.000+08:00

happy day is happy me B)

get ready for emo!!

2011-02-03T16:20:00.002+08:00

"we could have had it all, rolling in the deep"

Ok so I lied so what. But how can I just go on living like you never existed?

You should've known that you mean so freaking much to me.

SO FREAKING MUCH it's been 3 years now but I still mknxscisjnksnks miss you.

So much :(

I just read about Adele on Nylon & she said something that just struck my heart "He was the most important person who's ever been part of my life," she says of her mystery man. "I couldn't breathe without him. But of course, it ended, like always. And when it did, it was like a tap turning on." (extracted from NYLON February 2011 issue).

Just like you.

I hate it when this happens when suddenly thoughts of you just come flooding.

Like some angry tsunami of thoughts.

I'm supposed to be okay with you gone but please don't get it wrong, I don't have multiple dreams of you or cry every night for your return.

I kind of am doing find without you.

I smile a lot & am happy almost everyday. Who said I can't live without you?

But I just don't want to.

I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt me or break my heart but you know, you didn't have to go.

Wait but I would like to know, WHY THE DEVIL DID YOU LEAVE?!

SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED IN MY LIFE & YOU WEREN'T THERE.

THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO TELL YOU.

SO MANY MOMENTS WHEN I FELT LIKE CALLING YOU.

SO MANY MOMENTS WHERE I JUST WANT TO HEAR A SECOND OF YOUR VOICE.

SO MANY TIMES WHEN I NEEDED YOU THERE, BY MY SIDE.

So angry. Why did you leave?

I swear that you didn't have to go.

I want to go back to three years ago, can?

Can I relive the "I'll win this game for you" moment?

CAN?!

I hate you so much :(

meh

2011-02-02T00:27:00.004+08:00

OFYEAH MADE IT PASS THE TWO DAYS & TOMORROW IS JUST TOTAL SLACK DAY!!!

I have decided to sacrifice my sleeping time so that I can attend class reunion ya sad to wake up early but totally worth it. Last CNY reunion :(

Anyway it's so cold nowadays that the fan in my room isn't even on now but my feet are freezing like no one's business LIKE ICE K oh my legs are going to drop off soon~

I have been texting like crazy nowadays because it's so fun to type!

& people around me are all like "omg the click click so loud!" haha the click click.

That's such a plumpy term. PLUMPY FTW!

Meh, it's pass 12 now but I can't sleep.

Pretty much my whole family is asleep omg emo4life please I'm just FOREVER ALOOONE.

& I'm supposed to reach school at like what 6.45am tomorrow?

O SHIT MUCH. & I've decided to bring my iPod as well as hp charger hehehehe school electricity best kkkkkk :D

THANK YOU VANESSA TEO FOR HELPING WITH THE TAGGING!

Yes! For once I am early in uploading pictures ofyeah I am so proud of myself pleez.

& AMath Trigo was just crazy I didn't do 2 questions.

Sounds okay? Well guess what, there are only 4 questions so is it still okay?

HELL NO PLEEZ.

& when am I going to start updating properly?

OPZ BONUS QUESTION K!

2011-01-30T17:08:00.001+08:00

Omg forever alone I just suck at Guitar Hero kayyyyyyy!!

uninspired

2011-01-29T11:24:00.004+08:00

I can't resist Bruno Mars oman now my playlist consists of quite a number of typical artists like Paramore, Katy Perry & now Bruno Mars but ftw they're awesome no wonder everyone's just spamming their songs!

KE AIIII~ haha that's just my favourite new term & you can't say ke ai just like that you must say it in the Arinah way ofyeah pass the ke ai everyone.

Oh & pass the oyeah clap too!!! Hahahahah I am just so full of crap.

Oh Sec 4 life just SUCKS TO THE MAX & it's only the first month!

ASAP + CCA Spam = No free day at all = reaching home at at least 6pm everyday o this is just too sad for words; it's not ke ai at all okay.

I woke up so late today: 10.40am omg about 4hrs of my life have been wasted off just like that HOW CAN THIS BE?!

Family Reunion Steamboat tomorrow o I hate going out on a school night but I'm pretty excited because I luplup every one of them! B)

O & guess what, now I'm scared to sneeze with my nose & mouth closed after Mdm Zheng told us about the speed of sneeze being 200km/s or something oh man that's just so scary but how can I be a germy person & not have my mouth & nose closed :(

nope

2011-01-22T18:51:00.002+08:00

Zaki played catching with a lizard like k eew much boy?

RAINY SATURDAY. Just plain lovely.

I like snuggling up underneath the blanket feeling like a cute little kitteh oyeah.

But because I'm a bit menjeng hahah I choose to switch off the fan anyway because I can't live without a fan.

Failure to webcam = failure of all fails.

I felt so healthy this morning because I ran 2km & walked 0.4km (lol) & then went to the somewhat gym at my house but as I type this out, I feel quite pathetic because it's not like some hardcore health regime fyeah let's build muscles kind of thing. O shuckz.

My grandmother's sleeping over today & I realized that I pretty much wasted my Saturday.

Tons of E & A Math homework calling out my name from that ultra yellow yellow file of mine & on top of that, the EL compo entitled "Choices" which I'm only halfway done.

However, best thing about my compo = Ashley Stymest as the protagonist ofyeah.

Well not really actually I am the protagonist so he's the second one but that doesn't make sense at all does it? I know right.

I'm supposed to eat the noodles my mum bought like hours ago.

Shit. I bet the noodles are all swelled up.

Bonus question: Is this a proper post?

I say, NO. Hahahahaha k bai.

2011-01-19T15:48:00.002+08:00

I am so tired nowadays I can't even blog properly.

& yesterday I gave up on my 2.4km run halfway & was literally like "Wtf to hell with the 'remedial'" & started walking like a Siti Ayu omg hahahahahaha.

& my shoulders are forever in pain.

I'm scared. Is there a ghost sitting on my shoulder? :(

because

2011-01-19T15:28:00.003+08:00

my friend asked, "Why give up on him now; since you've liked him for three years already? I mean, why not just keep on liking him since you said that nobody could level up to him?"

& I said, "Exactly that. Because I really liked him, it's time I said goodbye"

first crush

2011-01-16T18:44:00.004+08:00

& because I finally could think straight, I choose to let you go for real.
Maybe I can preserve it, right now I know there's a chance to rekindle the blown away candle. But no.

No because I knew how I felt, how I was, how everyone knew better, how I couldn't always hide it, how I kept denying, how I thought it was finally gone & how much I wished when you walked away.
Thank you for changing me for the better.
But for now, good bye three years long of thoughts about you, of countless dreams of you, of praying for your return, of good lord, even the tears.

& this time, I'm not faking it (:

pyopyo

2011-01-16T15:58:00.004+08:00

I watched The Lovely Bones yesterday.
It was quite a show, I didn't get it why she had to kiss that guy (was his name Ray or smth? Lol forgotten & shunned away to the back of my mind) instead of giving a spiritual sign that she was in that safe before the murderer had a chance to sink it off?

Seriously, these kinds of shows are so WTF.

Some cameras make me look ultra obese some make me look like a sexy bitch hahaha so in conclusion, Kenny Cannon forever best (Y)
& why do boys agree on shouting over the phone? Like hello but there's such a thing called adjusting the volume.

messy messy room

2011-01-16T14:21:00.003+08:00

(365)(16) + 5

2011-01-16T12:36:00.000+08:00

I hold on to this moment, you know.

I realise that this is my first ever post in year 2011!!!

Ya that just proves how non-reliant I am on the internet opz thx thx *flips hair*

& because it's been 16 days into the new year, I think that there is no need for a Happy New Year or urm telling you my New Year resolutions (to be 165cm (actually this was last year's resolution hahaha) & to well stop procrastinating, start DOING) because it's a bit too outdated to do that but wtf I just told you my new year resolutions in the bracket lol.

So 5 days ago I turned 16 but honestly I feel like I look urm Sec 1 ya or even P6 seriously the Sec 2s look so mature like they're older than me!

The Sec 1s urm haha look like Sec 1s & the Sec 3s JUST TOWER OVER ME INFERIOR SHORT GIRL HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I got a really nice surprise from some of my classmates during recess up to the point that I literally cried (~emo~) when Ginnie & Vanessa brought in the cake from the back door of the class ya & I became totally bimbo because I couldn't stop saying Oh My God but I was seriously touched especially when they presented me with a NERF GUN FTW & NOT THE SMALL ONE EITHER CS6 BULLETS INCLUDED WOO SO HAPPIIIE~

The cake was great & I became a germs girl haha for once & ya totally gross but I didn't wash my hands before eating the cake :O

& then I hugged all the girls & Kai Yuan is also a girl for a day.

Seriously thank you so much because this is the first time this kind of thing happens to me because January is like too early & everyone's pretty much adjusting to the new year & being busy & such so it's pretty overwhelming (in a positive way of course).

So THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH! :D

Had a small celebration with my family at night yeay I finally got the Teen Vogue Handbook which chances of finding it in Singapore is LITERALLY 1 in 800 000 seriously they're just rare precious gems with words worth a million gold in it.

& I just had to "Like" & reply a simple Thank You at the very least for all who wished me Happy Birthday on Facebook even if it was total spam & halfway through I felt like just giving up but I thought no way because even if it's just a simple wish, I am truly thankful for it.

Oh & the ones who wish me through text messages too! :D

Felt extra happy when old friends, kindergarten friends, primary school friends wished me (Y)

So on Monday, I watched the previous Sec 4s get their O Level results highest one with 9 distinctions! OMG SERIOUSLY. All I get is 2 distinctions so sad D;

& the top students are all non-Malays, it says quite something huh & you can say I felt abit upset & disappointed?

Because as much as I don't like Malay boys (hahahaha) I'm still a Malay girl.

& Hans, it's not the end of the world with those grades.

I'm sure that this would serve as wake-up point in your life.

This is not the end.

Meanwhile... As for me..

O LEVELS YEAR FTW & I appreciate the concern, teachers but please stop repeating about it going to be a busy year & what you can't play & such.

It's just pressurizing us too much & make O Levels seem like something very negative when in fact you can put it in such a way that would make it seem worthy of our time & encourage us to pursue it with much positivity.

I'm really glad that there's a change of Chemistry teacher.

Ms J is really detailed in everything & there's just something about the way she teaches that makes things easier to understand.

Also, she's very straightforward & doesn't beat around the bush when we ask questions :B

As for English...

I just want to cut all these long talks & such & just cut to the point.

We're Sec 4 now. Last year. So please, all we want is WORK. REVISION.

THROW IT ALL TO US because it'll benefit us more than all these yaks.

We don't care about fun, we just want quality at the end of the day.

I can do this. I will make it through. I won't give up.

I can't give up. I will push myself to the very end. InsyaAllah.

Amin.

2010-12-29T16:34:00.001+08:00

studying with Syaz = yes. Good.

Because we actually study. YEAY!

2010-12-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas everyone (:

will be back on 26

2010-12-22T00:04:00.004+08:00

You never look like yourself from the side but your profile did not hide.

SO HOW YOU DOIN'?

Have I told you guys how much I love Christmas?

It brings much joy & most come in the form of one very precious word..

SALE.

OMAILORD!!!!

I totally splurged on a Zara top today as well as a Zara headband.

Topshop became so blech already & I don't know if I should get the Dorothy Perkins top too?

Hmm...

So tomorrow, I plan to get my Ray Bans & Gucci wallet (che!!).

Okay fine, it's not actually a guarantee but I hope I get them?

Calvin Klein jeans were shit cheap but I was wearing Nike dunks & the shop was densely populated with TALL people (Americans & such oh the inferior feeling!!) & I had been walking for urm 5 hours ya so I didn't get them.

See that's the thing about getting this kind of stuff; you have to try it before purchase.

& I absolutely hate trying on.

& there was this totally NICE (omg lame word or what "nice"?!) Guess bag but ok I'm drying out.

So I'm currently at KL now then on Thursday off to Johore & then Mersing with my cousins ya so it's like a whole Malaysia tour or something in 10 days.

Perak was surprisingly quite fun?

Spam chendol & seafood snacks (which I am SO SICK OF ALREADY) & we were such typical tourists because we actually got souvenirs & such.

We went kayaking & we rode on a speed boat (??????????) which was shit exciting!

Seriously though the waves were gonna end up eating the boat & it was freezing cold because the boat was speeding & the waves were splashing like mad.

Kayaking was so LOL with my sister & mother because they got tired halfway & I ended up paddling on my own.

My sister's worse of course she just literally sat there & went like "ya... I think you shall just pedal on your own" with a half-dead tone LIKE WTF SISTERRRR HAHAHAHAHA.

Perangai like a Siti Ayu HAHAHAHAHAHAHA K.

Oh & my mum was being so Singaporean during the breakfast buffet she was like "Eh! Take more cheese & yoghurt (because they're the only things we could smuggle out). Hurry up! Put in your bag! My bag is full already!"

We just gave her the -.- faces but ironically, we actually did help smuggle one or two cheese & yoghurts OK TOP SECRET.

Finally ate Krispy Kremes which taste way better than Dunkin' Donuts & cheaper too (if you take the original ones - which taste the best) & isn't the name cute?

KRISPY KREME SPELLED WITH A K FTW!

If you ask me, I am so sick of Dunkin' Donuts blech it's as sickening as Topshop ok che.

Oyes, I also came across a few disturbing scenes during my holiday.

It was when we were still at Perak & I wanted to change into my swimsuit at the toilet.

A maid & a toddler boy went in the toilet a few minutes later.

Apparently, that boy had to pee & the maid told him to pee in the sink.

PEE IN THE SINK!!!!! & she said it in the most normal tone ever giving me the impression that they actually do this a lot. Shit! GROSS.

& the maid kept going heh heh heh heh LITERALLY heh heh heh heh like wtf hyena.

Good Lord.

Anyway, I got over my phobia of hotel toilets.

I was scared of them because I read a ghost story about a vampire jumping out of the toilet bowl & I kept imagining the vampire looking like this

but with purple skin no seriously I imagined it as a cartoon vampire.

BUT THEN! I realized that a vampire could actually look like this

BEST CASE SCENARIO!!!

I wouldn't mind if a vampire who looks like this jumps out of the toilet bowl heck I'll let him turn me into a vampire & we shall elope!

But, vampires could also look like this

WORST CASE SCENARIO!!!

Gotta prepare some garlics to stuff into his mouth.

Oh & I also fell in love this holiday.

GOOD LORD YOU'RE SO SEXY BOY SO SEXY BOY SO SEXY BOY~

Takeshi Kaneshiro & that's his Biotherm Homme shot.

I seriously couldn't stop staring at his poster & I didn't! I literally stared at it for a few seconds. Stop. Then stare again. Stalker!

& I think Henry Golding is just so cute.

& so is Alex O'loughlin!

& Utt! Haha.

Ok I must stop.

So basically, I am enjoying my holiday very very much but sadly, it's coming to an end.

Good things always come to an end when I'm at the peak of my happiness :(

2010-12-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

Dear kid,

2010-12-11T23:01:00.003+08:00

You didn't know it was impossible.

So my brother just told me this big new discovery; which is...

wait for it..

PREDICTING YOUR OWN FUTURE WITH DIARY OF A WIMPY KID FTW.

& MY future says that I'll live in a house by the beach with one kid & a pet turtle.

Also, I'll be having a job as a pro athlete & a helicopter as my vehicle with a salary of $100,000 a year.

Just with these, you KNOW that it won't be my future because for one thing, how can I afford a house by the beach & a helicopter with a yearly income of $100,000 right? ABSURD.

& being a pro athlete in Singapore is kind of extremely near to impossible.

To top it off, I HATE PET TURTLES - all they do is snap at you & stink the aquarium.

Though, I won't mind having just one (adopted no doubt) kid.

My brother got ten kids omg if that became true, imagine all the duit raye (ang pao money) I must give on Hari Raya well good luck.

So guess what! I've decided to download Disney movies for my holiday trip next week.

I have just finished downloading Beauty & The Beast (!!favourite princess of all time!!) & am currently downloading Sleeping Beauty.

Then later, I'm going to download Pooh's Heffalump Movie, Treasure Planet & Snow White & The Seven Dwarfs!

It's so impossible to convert my Anastasia movie into an MPEG4 file, I think.

I have yet to try it actually.

Oh yes, & just yesterday, I watched Little Mermaid 2 for the umpteenth time 2 days ago.

I admit, it was kind of boring but I still liked it because of Ariel!!

& ya Prince Eric is such a hottie despite being, well, a cartoon character.

Well, truthfully speaking, he's not the first cartoon character I find hot.

Opz secret secret low profile low profile.

^TEEHEE^

To Santa (+ Mum & Dad)

2010-12-10T08:36:00.007+08:00

ARINAH SHAM'S WISHLIST VERSION 2010/2011

(with pictures so that you can be accurate)

1) A Moleskine sketchbook; black please because black looks so professional

2) Advanced Fashion Drawing by Bill Donovan

3) Fashion Box, The Immortal Icons Of Style by Thames & Hudson

4) (but of course) Teen Vogue HANDBOOK OKAY NOT MAGAZINE

Okay so basically these 4 are the main (meaning the MUST HAVES) ones & since you're all parsimonious people (well exclude Santa because technically speaking he does not exist shit!), take note that all of these are less than $50 yeap thrifty thrifty me!

But hey, you can't have just 4 items on a wishlist right?

5) a NERF gun! HELL YEAH DOOSH DOOSH

6) a JanSport backpack because I want to change bags every term next year

7) Doc Martens okay not really I just 30% want it but I'll write it down anyway to make the wishlist look longer. I'd be happy with the white ones: imagine wearing them to school!!!

8) Keds shoes

9) a funky (omg the word funky is so.................) Swatch watch yes I know G-Shock still fine but it's not like I'm shunning it away when there's a new watch. Oh & specifically the first or second one

10) Beats by Dr Dre

JUST PLEASE DON'T GET ME SOFT TOYS.

Soft toys are so gay to me like seriously, what can you do with them except leave them to collect dust on your beds or something? Lol I hate it when people give me soft toys.

Like what am I? 5 or something? Good Lord.

periods

2010-12-08T22:46:00.001+08:00

damn, this can't get any more true than it already is

Low Profile

2010-12-08T22:00:00.003+08:00

By the way that you were watching me.

Today, I'm a bad girl because I didn't go to my CCA.
Zzz, I feel so bad like a thousand bees are eating my tummy (if that's even possible).
Tonight = Pack bag. Tomorrow morning = CHIONG AH.

Yesterday was quite an awesome day.
Even though the BBQ was quite the failure since it was all girls & typical of us to depend on men for all these hard fire-starting works & such so BBQing proved to be quite a challenge, it was quite fun.
Spam shopping for hotdogs hahaha because they were sold at $1 per packet = so Singaporean manz.

& I was even happier because I bought Meiji Susu Cokolat mm mmm mmm k wow congrats to me I just made something Japanese seem like it came from urm Johore.
& HANNAH KOH MADE IT EVEN BETTER! Woo!
Thank you Hannah for that pretty dragonfly hair accessory cum bookmark cum well you can do loads of things with it actually.

I put it on my hair as a zezziign & pictures are going to be up soon: not as soon as now of course because it's quite late & I'm lazy.

Anyway, my sister said there's a cute guy on Level 16.
I WANNA SEEEEEEEEEEEEE HAHAHAHAHAHA okay but paiseh much if in the future he just happens to stumble upon my blog opz low profile low profile.
But I highly doubt so anyway ^TEEHEE^

Ya anyway I've lived here long & there are no cute guys in my block, or my estate for that fact. This is a good thing ya because I can be unglam without worry heh.

Plus, I only have three neighbours on my level & they're all married adults except for the Tans who have young children who are not so young seeing as how their youngest child, a boy man? boy ok man ok find young man, is well older than my sister. Heck, I think he went through NS already!

Yeah but I'm glad I don't have neighbours with young kids.
That would be shit annoying; like the kids just now like seriously women, out a sock in all three of your children.

Don't get me wrong. It's not like I'm some anti-kids to da max just that it's so annoying when they start squealing & squirming. Slap! Haha sadist.

So last night, my family went for pizza. It's been awhile.
& my mum shocked us all by saying "Ok write down your wishlist" *insert church choir* OH MY LORD Christmas this year would be filled with happy happy joy joy & butterscotch cookies~~~~!

At least, that's what I thought until she said "I mean, I'm not going to grant you ALL the wishes. Just some. Few.... One or two" ah.... dang.
It would be quite nice if Santa Claus did exist.

When I was young, I used to think that we didn't get tons of Christmas gifts because we had no chimney for Santa to climb down damn I was such a loser.

Ok woo Tumblrs back on! Stalk chio bu stalk chio bu oooo~
But... Aish... Looks like I spoke too soon :'(

what the

2010-12-05T18:07:00.003+08:00

Apparently my iPod charger & USB are at the back of the printer WTF I JUST BOUGHT A NEW ONE OKAY LIKE 3 DAYS AGO!!!! FML!

Way to go man Toyol shizz.

Haiz this kind of things happen to me all the time.

So my gut feeling was right! But it was too late anyway.

After buying the USB cable, I had this tiny feeling that my USB was going to be found & damn was it accurate. SHIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!

ya anyway, iJustine is so annoying. UNsubscribe!

2010-12-05T17:46:00.001+08:00

opz sorry, kay THANK YOU RIDHUAN FOR 2GB MOVIE WORTH HOURS OF DOWNLOADING & SENDING!

whip whip whoop

2010-12-03T09:02:00.003+08:00

Opz ok so now I know why people are pretty much spamming the phrase "I whip my hair" on blogs, Tumblrs, Facebook walls, Twitters & whatnots.

Heck, this kid is a freaking prodigy. Is there anything the Smiths can't do?

Okay yes, forgive me for I am perhaps the slowest kid on Earth who just heard Bruno Mars' Just The Way You Are a few days back I mean I heard about it I juts never heard it.

Well, I'm not a TV nor a 98.7fm person & I get my songs from well MySpace & preferably the indie bands not much people know about.

& if not for the holidays, I only watch my TV on weekends. No joke.

But, I like it that way because it makes me feel like a cool emokid girl or something ^TEEHEE^

Okay so yesterday, I watched Point Of Entry on Channel 5 & it was no doubt the lamest show on Earth & I only watched it because omg that Carl Ng man is so hot despite the fact that he's most probably more than twice my age but shizz he is one hot person!!!!

Ya, but I'm not going to watch that show again, it's too lame with such a weak dialog blech.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS!

I just love Christmas time & I love gifts too hahahahaha okbest.

If only there was snow in Singapore then we can truly have a white Christmas.

But shit, all you can get in Singapore is well the sun? Sad right, I know.

Okay you know what, screw being unique in music, Far East Movement is too hard to resist!

*fan girl scream*

but I do

2010-12-02T15:15:00.006+08:00

They didn't say that you should lose your mind.

It's funny really, I can choose to switch on the fan but I'm too lazy to walk & my fan has no remote control blech should ask for a trade with mum & dad.

& while I'm freezing to the bones in this 24 degrees (not so low right but wow powerrrrrrr~), I won't turn the air con off because if I do, the room would be too silent.

Shit, there's something awfully wrong with me.

Oh wow you'll be wishing to see the state of my room right now.

Everything's everywhere my table itself is now filled with foolscap paper, Physics workbook (nothing to do with homework, more to the fact that I took it all out of my bag & have yet to keep it in the cupboard), Multi-Purpose bag, The Sisterhood by Emily Barr & a totally useless DSLR (for now) because my sister ran away with the memory card & another DSLR, living me with no form of way to pleasure my craving to snap pictures.

I know, crazy right?

& today I was delirious with joy seeing as how my CCA ended 3 hours in advance woo hell yeah!

& most of the time was taken up by fan kicks & 3D kicks & splits heck the compound running didn't even take much time.

Man, I seriously thought I would stop running after 100m but omai looks like my stamina isn't as bad as I think it is. Completed the whole run without stopping (Y)

Okay, I seriously think there's a TOYOL in my house.

So for those of you who don't know what's that, it's a urm ghost lol Idk but it's in a shape of a child & it's green with pointed ears & before you start thinking it might be a goblin oh may I repeat that it's in the shape of a child - bald headed & naked. Yes.

So what these creatures do are take your valuable items & give it to their owners & in return, their owners would feed them blood from their big toe ya kinda really gross haha.

I mean, get it from the neck or something like vampires do but nooooooooooooooooo~ they had to be all gross & suck the blood from the big toe. Yux.

Okay, so basically, my brand new Havaianas, my sister's Nike slippers, my iPod USB & charger went missing like ALL OF A SUDDEN IT JUST FREAKING DISAPPEARED.

But ok fine so my Havaianas are actually not part of this mystery because lol it was actually at the top part of my cupboard but I just wanted to add more drama into this.

Yes, okay so my sister frantically searched for her slippers & honestly believed that the thief who stole her first pair of Nike slippers striked again but omai after a week, the slippers suddenly appeared behind the front door! FREAKZOIDS.

& my iPod USB & the charger is still NOWHERE TO BE FOUND & I don't think I brought it out so it's missing IN THE HOUSE which is absurd because heck I would have found it.

So ya, toyol much.

& because of that toyol I had to waste $22.50 for another USB.

LIKE SHIT MUCH but ok fine, this one's nicer ^TEEHEE^

Okay, I'm supposed to wake Leana up so that we can bbq the chicken together but I'm too lazy lol ok baddest friend in the world.

& the lightning right now is pretty scary...

2010-12-02T14:38:00.000+08:00

lol, you da plastik bitch yo

"Wataru!"

2010-11-21T09:21:00.008+08:00

Spaces left in places of empty words.

Good morning Singapore!

You can't deny, the morning is absolutely wonderful today, soft wind with a hint of haze & a drop of sunshine to brighten up the morning, a symbol of a magical endeavour waiting for you today.

Or not.

Well, pardon me because I started out the day with a sci-fi movie.. Okay fine an anime movie - one that I watched about 2 years ago.

The only reason why I'm watching it again is because okay the cartoon character is cute hahahahah wtf & well, the movie brings back, cheesy as it is, I say sweet memories.

I am still contemplating on whether or not I should go watch Harry Potter later with my friends, part of me is lazy but part of me says I'll deeply regret if I miss it.

So how?

I had the worse nightmare ever which involved my best friend in da world migrating to Indonesia!! It was damn sad I tell you I even heh teared ya in my dreams & then realized that I was crying in real life too shizz!

It was 5:33am & the nightmare felt so real I sent her a text asking her if she was going to migrate shizz I was in shock.

I was in shock & I was holding my pee too but I was afraid to go to the toilet alone hehe.

Anyway, I realize that nowadays, I never make it pass midnight heck I don't even make it pass 11:30 (seeing as how the living room clock is about 7 minutes earlier) seriously, I pretty much dive into sleep before that time!

Ironically, it's not like I'm some kind of uhh rag & bone man walking around estates screaming "karang-guni!" but all I pretty much do is well... nothing.

Gawd, I'm such a lazy ass with no life.

But tomorrow! My life is starting agaaaaaaaaain!

Swimming with Nurleana Amira who is so NOT migrating to Indonesia hahahah & then Tuesday is free day, hopefully I get to meet up with Han & then Wednesday, Amirah's house well it's been awhile since I visited her grandmother & Thursday & Friday is CCA day shizz 8 hours & then weekends hmm I think I might be going out with my family.

THIS IS GREAT I FEEL SO PROFESSIONAL LIKE HEY MAN I CAN'T GO OUT CUZ I'M FULLY BOOKED THIS WEEK SHIZZ THAT SOUNDS SO LAWYER WOO~!

& my organizer would be fully filled with post-its & black ink & exclamation marks & to-do lists yeay yeay yeay!

My organizer is kind of dismantled & peeling okay maybe NOT dismantled but still it's sides are peeling because heck I've been using it for two years now & next year, I'm going to get a black organizer or a brown one, you know those professional looking ones or a Louis Vuitton one cheh bedek act rich only.

Since I pretty much doze off before 11:30pm, I actually intend to watch Survivor NOW but I'm kind of lazy. I like the guy called Benry he has the most gorgeous eyes & he's kind!! I used to like Sash but then well he turned out to be a total bitch & started an alliance with Brenda who is Number 1 I hate so out with you Sash.

Anyway, I just so happened to come across this picture on weheartit:

Aww man, that is so..

CHEESY SHIT. Damn people, there is more to life than this emokid moments okay.

I can't believe all this irrelevant rants I can come up with in the morning.

Shizz! I must be a walking prodigy or something! TEEHEE.

Anyway, I deleted my YouTube account I mean I don't upload any videos I just subscribe but nonetheless, I deleted it & started a new one, so now, I'm on an IT Scavenger Hunt or something trying to remember what the hell did I subscribe to last time.

Trust me, it's tougher a job than you think it is.

& guess what people, shoe doodling = sook-ses! ^^

2010-11-19T19:27:00.000+08:00

Hakuna Matata

2010-11-19T19:08:00.003+08:00

They say if you make a wish & stared at it for 15 seconds, you wish would come true.

I tried & it worked! Really!

HAHAHAHAHA KIDDING I LIED HAHA WERE YOU FOOLISH ENOUGH TO FALL INTO MY TRAP? DO YOU FEEL DUMB NOW? HAHAHAHA LAFF @ U.

so purple with gay

2010-11-19T17:53:00.005+08:00

Singing our song to the tune of dawn.

Seriously I'm just the best daughter anyone can have because I just gave my mum a full body massage hell yeah & this is not the first time.

Shizz! I'm too kind *praise praise*

Haha okay no I kid you.

Everyone's watching Inception right now yeah I'm as surprised as you'll be if Taylor Momsen decided to dress politely about the fact that both my parents came home early.

Damn, it must be a really tiring day.

So what exactly did I do today?
Oh nothing much, I pretty much wasted the day today as much as I wasted yesterday.

& my internet is SUCH A BITCH like seriously, how long must it freaking take to download one part of a movie right? Like what the hell.

As much as the joy holidays bring to people, I believe that it's this time of the year where students are most broke unless of course you're Blair Waldorf material coming from the Upper East Side & money is like pumpkin seed (okay... whuuu t?) then well you are the only exception (think Paramore) because duh, parents don't give you allowance!

I think that's the only downside.

I hear this question a lot: "if you could be anyone for a day, who would you be?"

WELL SHIZZ BUT I WANT TO BE A LOT OF PEOPLE FOR A DAY.

But honestly, the first person that comes to mind is Obama.

But hey, why not right, I wonder how it feels like to know that perhaps the whole world is depending on you for that promised change that you would bring.

Or how easy it is to NOT be a Bush specimen seriously, I thought Bush was going to cause Judgement Day because of his horrid actions.

I'm serious okay. I was 8 & I was very very scared.

Then again, if I died when I was 8, shizz, I'd have far lesser sins than I have now.

Not that I want to die, in fact I fear death the second most!

I watched the Asian Games soccer & Men's Table Tennis just now.

This is the first time I'm actually bothered to watch the Asian Games but I only watch each for about 15mins or so before changing the channel but hey, it's still a record OKAY BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT.

The point is, JAPANESE GUYS ARE HOT OMG AM I GOING TO BE A JAPANESE FAN NOW? :O NO NO NO NO NO!

Okay, but seriously, the guy called Niwa Koki (hahahaha you got to admit it's funny okay shizz now I sound like a racist I take back my laugh okay sorry sorry) is SO CUTE but he's short so that's why his partner K. Matsudaira (whose 'K' I don't know what name it's supposed to be) is CUTER HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH EVERYBODY'S STARRY EYED~~~

& the reason I actually memorized their name is not because I have efficient memory or have heard about them before but it's mainly to the fact that I saved their names in my phone SO THAT I CAN STALK THEM ON FACEBOOK *breathes heavily like a pervert*!!!

TEEHEE.

Okay, I'm going to start using TEEHEE a lot because I've been watching NigaHiga a lot these days so TEEHEE.

It makes me feel sooooooooooooooooooooo...

gay B)

Score one for the old man!

My dad says he is going to get me my phone battery gawd after 10 centuries like FINALLY DAD. I hate the current phone I'm using.

I miss my N76 it's so antique but I love it so so so so so so so much.

The best thing is, it's not a cliche!

& it can store about 4 digits wort of text messages unlike this stupid phone which says messages are 95% full 95% of the time -.-

I'm just going to spam bright gay colourful stickers on it TEEHEE.

& yeay! FVD is working again!

Gawd, I hate YouTube Downloader, it's so laggy.

Yesterday, I watched Mantra & it was as good as shizz with the lame effects & the uhh Dragonball-Z actions to it.

& it's gross too with the corpse eating & cannibal shit seriously, when will there ever be a decent horror movie that's actually horrifying uhh in the right way?

Taylor Swift was on Life! today.

I think I'm going to give her song a listen, just that one song about Joe Jonas.

YEAH JUST GIVE THAT DOUCHE A VIRTUAL PUNCH YOU GO GIRL because even though I'm no Taylor fan, I definitely prefer her to that playboy Joe JONAS omg that name Jonas is just so taboo good lord people save your eyes!

meow I'm catwoman

2010-11-18T16:35:00.003+08:00

Yesterday my brother & I had a big fight because he didn't want to help me kill the lizard but kept watching the TV instead hahaha lol ok but I was really angry because the lizard was tinily gross so I FREAKING SCRATCH MY BROTHER TILL HE BLED!!!!!!!!

Ok no I did not but it left a scar.

Shizz, I'm just violent.

& today he was an ass for awhile but now, he's being very kind I kind of feel like giving MYSELF a scar.

throw the kitten!

2010-11-18T16:10:00.002+08:00

THIS IS GONNA FILL UP MY IPOD WOOOOOO LOVE THIS SHOW!

& BTW, k shizz lol didn't know it's still in caps, I updated my Tumblr.

Yup, after light years, it's finally updated.

2010-11-18T10:28:00.000+08:00

LIST OF THINGS THAT I NEED:

(yes because I like making lists gawd there I said it)

1) Headbands & those totally rare ones because it seems like more & more girls in my school are using them now gawd you cowards who don't dare wear them first cheh hahahaha

2) Contact Lens because well this is pretty much the last pair

3) (to find) my Gameboy because haha ok gay but I want to play Harvest Moon again

4) get Gossip Girl DVDs (?) now this is optional thought because I've watched all seasons & I only find Season 1 worht re-watching

5) iPod accessories because ya my iPod is so dull

6) (to download) ANIME HAHAHAHAHAHAHA OMG RIGHT but don't be scared, I won't be changing my name to uh Yuki Sham or something anytime soon

7) Ear-piece yes & I want those colourful ones but damn, why are they all above $30?!?!?!?!

so that's pretty much it. Teen Vogue would be on the list but thank God, I'm fast woo.

Wouldn't want September to repeat itself!

9 Zulhijjah

2010-11-18T10:24:00.001+08:00

I went to visit you yesterday but it ended shortly as the rain was pretty heavy & I ended up with a totally drenched baju kurung.

It was the same one I wore on 26 November 2009, btw.

I just had to wear that exact same one.

Ibu made sure she read the whole Yasin before we left, we stood under the big Narnia umbrella.

I hope you know that we did not forget you & that your daughters & sons, your wife, your grandchildren too did not forget you.

I miss you so much.

Every time I got to nenek's house, I feel that someone is missing because I have one less person to salam. You won't be eating at the dining table, at that seat you'll always sit at nor would you be lying down at the living room bench watching TV1.

You won't even be lying down at the bed.

We didn't throw away anything you owned.

Your glasses are still in the drawer in Z's room alongside the thermometer you used & your little medicine storage box that had the days of the week written on it.

Your walking stick is hanging in ibu & ayah's room.

Your clothes are still neatly folded in that huge brown cupboard.

You would be so proud of nenek.

She's staying strong for us all & acting as a dependable big sister to Nek Esah, who is still badly grieved over the loss of Tok Saad.

Yes, he too returned to the hands of God, as if life without you wasn't hard enough.

But who am I to question what God decided?

Humam had his PSLE results that day, if only you stayed on just a few hours more, you'd come to know that he did manage to be promoted.

Hanisah finished her O Levels just a few days ago.

I'm sitting for mine next year.

Ibu talks about you a lot & when she does, I see sparks in her eye.

She's 16 again, she's talking about how you two would always jog at Mount Faber.

She's 10 again, she's talking about how you were the first person to bring her to the airport.

She's a child again, she's talking about how she used to ask you to make u-turns at the hill thing haha at Jurong East because she liked the feeling of her stomach "jumping down."

Your breakfast was wholemeal bread with butter spread, toasted.

You would leave the house in the morning & ride on your motorbike to nyonya's house.

I used to cover my nose when I entered the kitchen because you'd be smoking by the window.

You fetched me from school one day, when I was 8 I remembered because I was still yellow house haha & you met up with a few friends when you were buying prata.

I also remember how deeply moved you were when they visited you here last year but I could see that you were upset because your friends could walk properly, they could drive here even but you had to depend on nenek & a wheelchair to bring you here & there.

I know that you hated depending on others or make their live hard.

Your children told you to go for surgery last year but you only agreed when they said that it would be paid via your Medisave account & not their own pocket money.

I remembered how you fell trying to get out of bed on your own & cut your lip.

It was very hurtful to watch, not because you fell but because you tried so hard.

But I hope you know that you were never a burden to us.

You're that pillar of strength for everyone.

You're my idol, I salute to you for not giving up, constantly trying.

I'm sorry I always grabbed the remote control when I was younger to watch Kids Central.

I'm sorry that I might not have spent much time with you on the last moments of your life.

I'm sorry that I did not help you up when you fell.

I'm sorry that I did not visit you much when you were at the hospital.

I'm sorry I did not visit you much when you were back at your home.

But most of all, I'm sorry I did not know how much you meant to me until after you left this world.

I love you atuk.

& thank you, for everything that you have contributed because without you, there is no me.

ehh

2010-11-18T09:42:00.000+08:00

If only they spoke a little more but what the hello LOVE.

Season 2

2010-11-18T08:18:00.000+08:00

JANUARY THIRD ON ABC FAMILY CAN'T WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIT!!!

zombie

2010-11-14T16:44:00.007+08:00

We were born for this.

Such a lovely cold weather today mmm reminds me of Christmas time 2 years ago when my family had Starbucks together, sweaters tucked as we sipped our coffees, enjoying the warm atmosphere of the friendly shop while the night outside was about 13 degrees as drops of snow-like rain made our ears & nose pink.

I love Christmas.

Slept at 5+ am in the morning today watching Killers & after that Pretty Little Liars; there's nothing like abc family on a holiday!

But I must say, only Hanna & Aria acted okay, the other two girls were kind of stiff.

& today, for the first time in the long time, I woke up after 11am...

only to realize that , I woke up at 11:15 am, as my sister pointed out, because technically speaking the clock in my room is about 27mins early thus it seems kind of pathetic to say that it's the first time in a long time that I woke up after 11am because I woke up 15 mins after that, a mere 15 mins.

Hell, do you guys even get what I'm saying because I think my words are kind of broken & stupid. Fail.

Nonetheless, I must not make it a habit.

I plan to wake up at 8am every day so that when the new school term starts, I won't be having such a hard time getting accustomed to the change of ritual.

The internet's all effed up & stupid it's pissing me off.

My dad said that he is going to upgrade the internet soon hmm I want Windows 7 please.

I wish I had a bathtub!
I'll be having long hot bubble baths almost everyday shizz!

My iPod is officially updated.

Well, not officially seeing as how I have no idea what videos I should download & btw, where can I download movies WITHOUT using Torrent or Megaupload but Mediafire instead which would be great?

I'm just going to stock up on movies & whatnots before going on a holiday.

I'M SO EXCITED FOR BACK-TO-SCHOOL SHOPPING EVEN THOUGH IT'S NOT EVEN DECEMBER YET!!

I wanna be boomz next year k gross usage of 'boomz' is so Ris Low yux.

You know what? I'm not giving up!
I'm going to try & design my shoes ONCE AGAIN but with a different type of fabric pain of course, once bitten twice shy as Felina always says.

Yeah I know right, she speaks like an old woman HEHEHEHEHEH NEH.

My holidays are not filled up with much plans because well, I've said it time & time again; Singapore's so boring & limited you gradually run out of ideas on what to do & where to go & the saddest thing is shizz I'm only 15!

I AM SO GOING TO MIGRATE.

I think I am a zombie hahaha whoa that would be cool though I would be able to kill almost anyone & not go to jail because duh I'm a freaking zombie \m/...

Shizz, I sound like such a sadist what's happening to me?!?!?!

OH & I finally watched Despicable Me which is so adorable but lol I hate Miranda Cosgrove so that makes me not want to watch it again despite the fact that the uhh yellow jellybean like things are super adorable.

& yes, I dislike Miranda Cosgrove.

& Miley Cyrus & Taylor Swift & Vanessa Hudgens & OF COURSE DEMI LOVATO SHIZZ NUMBER ONE I ANTI yes all this Disney-Disney plastics & Miranda's the outstanding one because I really like Nickelodeon people like uh Drake & Josh hahahaha & Taylor Swift is kind of Disney since she dated Joe Jonas so yeah that's the link.

I have yet to dislike Selena Gomez but I think I'm starting to get annoyed by her.

I seriously hope your holidays are better than mine.

H: Happy, Holiday, Homework

2010-11-12T10:35:00.003+08:00

To the end of time.

HOLIDAYS HAVE STARTED BOOYAH.
Ok, but I doubt this holiday would be fun seeing as how the O Journey has pretty much started & my holiday homework is about 10 stories high shizz!
SHAME ON YOU PEOPLE WHO END YOUR OS TODAY.

So basically, my plan today is to slack to da max.

Will be meeting Atiqah later at JP & that's about it? Haha.

Oyes & I'm gonna catch a movie with Zaki, Syahmi & SUFI HAHAHAHA later at night.

I cannot wait to catch Harry Potter.

It's like I've planned my whole year around this (cheh fake).

It's kind of sad to know that the series is ending; everyone pretty much grew up with Harry Potter movies.

Man, I bet the Twilight Saga movie people are happy.

Shizz, I hate the Twilight Saga, it's all so fake & gay.

But on the plus side, NARNIA WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I love Narnia! From the magical creatures to the intriguing storyline & even though I don't like both of the girls (they're so annoying), well, there's always Skandar to make up for the losses!

SHIZZ HE'S SO CUTE.

He's the one on the left, mind you. I'm not much of a beard fan.

Okay, now let me tell you about the epic reactions people gave when I said I am not a fan girl of Kpop anymore.

"Woo! You are normal now!"

"Welcome back to the right side of life!"

"YAY ARINAH IZ AVERAGE GEGERLZ LIKE US ^^"

"Congratulations, you're finally awake"

HAHAHAHAHA WHAT THE.

Yesssssssssssssssss, English songs dominate!

& I downloaded Panic! At The Disco albums, I've missed Brendon Urie D:

Anyway, saddest thing in my life happened.

Ok, so I painted my shoes yesterday because I felt so artsy fartsy (my shoes are black btw) but today, TODAY, I FOUND OUT THAT THE FREAKING PAINT CAN'T EVEN BE SEEN!

It's so heart breaking, I've put so much effort into it...

Nah, not really actually I actually thought it looked kind of lame but ohwell, trying to be all melodramatic & emo here hahahawtf.

Shizz, learnt my lesson: Never paint on black surfaces.

But seriously, I wasted minutes of my life doing that!!

Damn, I wish I am Japanese so that Sushi would be my staple food.

& Singapore sux. I'm not even anywhere near loving it.

It's so boring & limited.

Tired.

2010-11-10T16:16:00.002+08:00

you're so popular on Facebook but in real life, almost everyone hates your.
SUX BODO FYL FYL FYL.

2010-11-10T14:12:00.001+08:00

I did something really bad. Hell yeah I did.
& where the hell is my iPod charger? Shizz.

sinner

2010-11-08T22:12:00.003+08:00

I lied a lot today.

waited forever

2010-11-08T16:41:00.003+08:00

I'm falling; where is my head?

18 November is so happening:

Sleepover. Nail-biting boy off to Australia & of course...

HARRY POTTER & THE DEATHLY HOLLOWS PART ONE.

Hell yeah! But what an emotional journey.

Friday was awesome.

Saturday was even more awesome.

I hope Wei Kang is happy because we gave him three cupcakes which were more special (thanks to Cadbury!) & Guitar Hero EXPERT for the first time ever & I got a 69%.

& it was Misery Business oh hell yeah I rule~

I have pictures of three men/boys in my iPod; I'm starting to wonder if I'll grow up horny.

Eeeps. That kind of scares me.

AP is ending in 3 days I have to preserver & try to come to school early from tomorrow onwards.

Mdm Zheng said that she's going to finish Trigo for A Math by this week.

All this speed-studying is kind of making my mind explode, thus the full on procrastination at home.

I heard that most people started on their O revisions already.

Shizz! I'm left behind!

I hate coming home to an empty house.

It's so emokid material. Half the time I don't know where my brother & sister are.

My parents are obviously at work so I don't wonder about their whereabouts.

MY MUM IS NOT A NURSE. Omg to the NG -.-

When I'm nervous, my heart travels at 3.0 x 10 to the power of 8 meters per second & I would feel like peeing. I'm just saying.

I deleted a whole lot of kpop songs in my iPod.

Not wanting to discriminate anyone but I just think that kpop is getting annoying.

REALLY SUPER ULTRA DELUXE ANNOYING.

I think France & Sweden have the best music.

Shoulder. Hurts. Stomach. Grumbling.

My mother was so happy just now because I actually voluntarily asked her to get me health supplements up to the point that instead of saying "C first" like she usually does when I ask her to buy me something (via text messaging) she actually said "K" yeap one huge caps lock "K" & I could just feel her getting giddy happy.

I'm going to ensure that this holiday would be fruitful.

Plus, SPAM TOPSHOP END OF DECEMBER WOOOOOOOOO!!

& I'm NOT going to get a Nike or Adidas bag for sure next year.

I think Lacoste shoes are nice.

Or should I get Vans? Or should I just stick with Nike?

Or Onitsuka Tiger? Cheh berangan only my mum's going to give me the red card if I ask for an Onitsuka Tiger school shoe.

Some people are just too hypocrite material for words.

not a fan girl

2010-11-05T12:06:00.000+08:00

I am posting this not because I am a crazy fan girl but oman just listen to the way he raps.

Shizz! I gotta learn how to rap this fast before I'm 20!

malfunction

2010-11-05T11:15:00.002+08:00

I look at all the pretty girls & I know that my wardrobe is so a century ago.

*emokid1995 moment*

dove

2010-11-03T19:39:00.001+08:00

I saw the dove & I knew it was no prank call.
I told you not to give up on life. I told you so many times :(

Helena Lee Jia Xin

10 November 1995 - 3 November 2010

2010-11-01T21:18:00.001+08:00

What a day.
Tomorrow's going to be just as bad & long.
It's only day one but I am super exhausted already.

North Korea & South Korea conflict.
Damn.

Hyped for Thursday!

exceptionally extraordinary

2010-10-30T12:01:00.003+08:00

"Well the kids are all hopped up and ready to go;

They're ready to go now."

-The Ramones

Ok I've decided to love The Ramones.

& I think (the late) Johnny Ramone is kinda hot ok kinda gross ya saying this because he's a '48 & I'm a '95 I do like older guys but my max. years are 15 so this is kinda, well,

extreme.

What's with the conspiracy against Jurong?

It is such a LOL I CAN DIE LAUGHING because seriously, we're not even an elite school & there's no A-Star factor about us either because just by looking at our school building, you just know that we've kinda exaggerated on our Future School status.

& lol to how mature it was to go ahead & post it on Stomp.

I don't like my school that much but I'll really miss it when I graduate next year so it's a love-hate relationship that I have with my school.

Plus, I've found new reasons to actually like my school + look forward to the 2 Weeks AP.

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE.

The long CCA break has left me with an ultra low stamina I did not even complete 8 rounds but I was sweating caterpillars after 3 rounds.

I pretty much died after doing 3D kicks damn damn stamina stamina.

I dropped dead by the time I reached home (thank God I already bathed before that) & Yoko Yoko became my new best friend.

Yeap, it was that bad shizz my body age is 75!

I want to get a new wallet & not a Ripcurl or Billabong one because I've learnt my lesson.

River Island purses are sexy & loud woo my kind of thing because I'm an attention seeker.

Yeaaaaaaaaaaah... I deserve a slap for that.

Surprisingly, even with a totally beyond lousy L1R5, I actually managed to get promoted to Secondary 4 Express. Shocker!

Haiz, how can I compete with the L1R5 6 people while still maintaining a life that is not 24/7 studying?

Tasha's party later! I am so excited!

But at the same time upset because I'm skipping Halloween with my sweet sweet love hahaha later for this. Then again, it has been awhile since I spent time with my family.

& I miss my cousins & Han who's been unavailable since O Levels started.

My brother is a douche punch punch punch.

Mum & dad bought ice-cream yeay om nom nom Cookies & Cream.

In the future, ice-cream is going to be the world's staple food seeing as how the temperature is rising hello El Niño.

I HATE RELIGIOUS CLASS ZZZZZZ STEALING SATURDAYS >:Z

Now, it's time to punch holes in my River Island bag because I'm short & it's a long strap.

Sad sad situation.

wna wna

2010-10-30T11:52:00.002+08:00

click at your own risk

shit.

find me September

2010-10-30T11:38:00.002+08:00

Missed. This. Issue. Hole. In. Collection. Am. FREAKING. OUT.

To you.

2010-10-30T10:36:00.001+08:00

I've decided that Swedish music shall be my newest muse.

The Powerful A.S

2010-10-28T15:38:00.001+08:00

We have the same initials!

This proves how so meant to be we are. Let's elope! :D

Ash is not from Pokemon

2010-10-27T22:27:00.004+08:00

Mike, I love you.

But baby, here's your competition.

O. M. G.

Think #1

2010-10-27T21:25:00.003+08:00

I think it's about time that I write about this on my blog? Oui.

Relationships.

It's the norm nowadays to have them but is it wise to?

Think.

I always believe that the main purpose of a relationship is not to have status or to show the world that you have that someone special who will send you sweet good night text messages & walk you to the front door of your house without fail everyday.

It's more than that.

I believe that the main purpose of a relationship is to bring out the best in your boyfriend/girlfriend. If anything, you're indirectly depending on each other to lead you in life.

Every decision made will affect your partner in one way or another.

That is why, you need to ask yourself; are you mature enough to have this responsibility?

The truth is, puppy love or not, relationships are not games.

Both of you are humans -humans with feelings.

True, you will get hurt but the bigger question is, how many times will you get hurt?

I've seen my friends crumble with emotions - there are many.

But I can only think of one couple who have made it through every fall & actually improve themselves with every bicker they have.

He changed her into a better person, influenced her to be more down-to-Earth, she influenced him in his studies & he does not see school as a play thing but takes it more seriously.

What I admire most about them is, despite whatever, they still maintain the true person they are inside & not totally change themselves to the likes of the other.

They do not give in to each other all the time, they stand for themselves.

It might make the other angry but at the end of the day, it is acceptance & rational thinking that makes one of them realise "Hey, I'm wrong."

Admit & apologies. Simple.

I'm not saying that giving in is a bad thing.

But I'm not saying it's a good thing either.

It can differ based on how the situation is.

Every fight is supposed to make the relationship stronger as both of you ride on a journey to self-discovery, know what mistakes have been done & not repeat them.

I also believe that relationships mean change; without actually changing who you are.

Who you are = the good in you because everyone has a good part in them.

Nobody in this world is truly bad, we were born pure but it was we ourselves who edited that.

I believe that you're supposed to change your partner for the better & bring out the good in him/her. Make him/her improve based on personality.

There are a few things in life that are so obviously wrong & those are what you have to get rid of in your partner.

He/she is not supposed to bring you down, to firmly agree that everything shall go his/her way, turn you into someone rebellion & who lies a lot.

He/she is not supposed to be in charge of where you go, what you do, like some puppeteer; pulling your strings.

He/she is not supposed to play with your heart, say one thing but meant the other.

He/she should be prepared to commit & work alongside you in making things work.

He/she is not supposed to make you live up to his/her wants such that everything you do is a sacrifice to yourself.

He/she is not supposed to change you into a stranger, someone the people around you become unfamiliar with & doubtful of who you are.

Now ask yourself, is your relationship about 85% opposite of what I believe a relationship is meant to be?

If yes, then maybe it's time to WAKE UP, LET GO & MOVE ON.
We're young & have our whole lives ahead of us.
Why waste your time on nonsensical stuff that would not guarantee a bright future?

Dead Tmr

2010-10-27T20:58:00.001+08:00

I've finally found a part of me that you don't need.

I think Zaki should earn a Gold medal. Just because.

Me: Eh, how? Is there any girl that you like now from your school?

Zaki: Nope. They're all stupid & ugly.

Lol. That just left me stunned.

Like what the hell am I supposed to say after THAT comment right?

Lessons have officially started & I just envy the lower sec!

They're all free & running while we're locked by the power of biometrics in our classrooms.

LITERALLY. & I heard that there was 2 hour of Math back-to-back yesterday.

Well, thank God I did not attend school yesterday then.

& what kills me more is that today, the Sec 1s were all in their P.E attire!
I bet they're having an amazing race or something.

NOT FAIR I ALSO WANT KKKKK!

The only Post-Exam Activity that us Sec 3s had was The War Games; which was AWESOME!

The winning was great but the experience was better!

We were such a united class & the outfits were cute hehe & not forgetting the Sandara Park hair nyehehe sexaye~~~

Iyadh, Ridhuan, Huda & I had an awesome one hour.

At least, I think it was, anyway. & Ridhuan just couldn't stop eating the Girl Guide cookies lol.

We were so gangster to be at Level 5 & talking non-stop.

& we kept leaning against the wall because we didn't want the cleaner to see us.

We kept talking though & I bet she was trying to find the source of the voices.

(Y)

Ohyes, the other day, I was pricked at the side of my feet by a fragment of shattered glass mirror & it wasn't a big piece of glass (it was about 2cm long & 0.2cm wide) but my blood just gushed out (because I am blood type O, as YJ said) like pee & filled my whole hand & spilled at the music room floor, eventually.

& lol to the juniors who looked at me like I was going to die any minute.

It wasn't painful at first but for the next few minutes my feet was numb.

Nonetheless, it was the most exciting thing that has ever happened to me in my 3 years in JSS.

I did feel like I was going to die though because that's the effect blood has on me. Huhu.

I'm going to do something really daring soon.

It's not against the Law though, so it's not exactly a BAD thing.

But, it's not exactly 100% innocent of course. Jeng jeng jeng, the adventure of a lifetime!

I shall write about it after I've actually done it.

Uhuhu, I'm so excited I'm gonna prick my feet & watch blood flow~!

8 Years Later

2010-10-27T20:33:00.001+08:00

We've been friends for so long now.

& I'm pleading & begging you to not give up on life.

Everyone's here to support you through this journey.

You have friends, family, doctors & nurses around you.

If we are not giving up, then so shan't you.

om nom nom

2010-10-15T19:39:00.003+08:00

Lol, I wanna marry this kid. He has that intoxicated look on his face.

Felicity is just spilling out that smile of his.

& look! He even made Hitler want to dance!

Copycat Smells Like Rat

2010-10-15T19:13:00.002+08:00

Yeh, u soh fek I wana slap u.

Not trying to be narcissistic but urm yeah, I'm not even that great but you're actually copying me?

Whoa, just proves how unoriginal you are "FRIEND."

PUNCH.

2010-10-15T19:08:00.002+08:00

"The line between us is building up into a massive wall.

I miss you guys a lot more than I want to."

Gr8est Feeling

2010-10-15T16:07:00.005+08:00

Far less than deceiving the ones closest the heart.

How is it possible that 23 degrees feel like 10 degrees?
I'm shivering to the bones but it just feels so wrong to pull out an over-sized jumper when the sun outside is just glaring its non-existent ass out.

Hooray & a hoorah finally the EOYs are over & even though I did not study much, well let's breathe put a relief of not needing to mug so much.

Or feel guilty about not mugging, for that fact.

I died twice in a week.

Pure Chemistry was a Pure Killer & A Math was mind-boggling & I was freaking out so much I forgot all that I have learnt the past week, seeing as how the night before, I was revising for Pure Physics.

Yeah I know right, two heavy subjects in one.

Welcome to the life of a JSSian.

& we're not even an elite school so a great big salute to you if you're from an elite school.

I feel so freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
But then, seeing as how today's the last day for the Sec 4s I guess we are now the Sec 4s & I am really scared. All the teachers said that our break would only last 3 days because when we're back, O Levels mode people, O Levels mode.

Just the thought of it freaks the hell out of me.

My sister is at Sarawak now so for the next few days, everything hers is MINE HEHEHEHEH.

But it gets kinda lonely. & we can't text much either.

Aiiii, emokidz of da wurld.

I just hope she gets me chocolates from the airport of course, NOT SARAWAK PLEEZ.

I am all hyped about Sunday! (Y) (Y)

& hopefully, they're showing The Child's Eye at Vivo's GV so us 3 can go watch it after a day at the beach. WHICH reminds me, I should probably pump the inflated volleyball.

& Monday! TOPSHOP IZ W8ING 4 MII!

Ok, so many plans, so little money, Huhu.

Finally, I can just be bored the whole day & slack & eat beetles or something.

Basically, that's my dream agenda but alas, my parents have other plans installed for me.

For one thing, tomorrow I have to attend my dad's friend's son cutting of hair thing or something which I don't even know what the rationality behind it is but people say that it's a form of telling people that you have a new born child?

Well, I don't know.

I'm not against the event, I'm just against the fact that I have to attend it.

I know nobody there & my sister isn't even around to accompany me + listening to my iPod the whole time is not one of the choices because that would only end up making me look very stuck up, like "I'm too good for this" kind of feeling which would not only make bad first impressions, but embarrassment to my parents too.

So. Not. Ideal.

I want sweet potatoes!

I'm craving for sweet potato chips; which are just so rare.

I should make a note to remind myself to get them next time I go to Malaysia or something.

OR DUH OMG TEXT MY SISTER MUCH DUH!

I have my night all planed out, basically, I'm going to stay up & watch all the entertainment in the world!

The new headsets that I bought are so uselessly annoying, well, can't expect much from something that costs $10.90 right?

Lesson learnt; never be a cheapo. Trust Apple/everything in Nubox only.

You know what my dream is?

To slap all the fake people in the world! Angry!

Why am I so full of anger lol I need to take a chill pill.