pas avec toi

Well, it's been awhile since I've been here.

It's no denying: my life has been pretty much filled up with tons of A Math papers, thinking of steps for the teachers day performance on top of trying hard to get 4 marks for my Chemistry SPA3 & then now worrying about Physics SPA3 because I can't seem to sustain a mark of more than 2 & the pile of things I have to do before GE2, which is in 2 weeks time, is just increasing.

I am sad. I am sad at how my life turned out to be this year & I am tired, I realise.

My energy in school seems high but when I reach home, POW! black out: I can't even stay up past 9pm this week perhaps all the energy used in previous months of sleeping at 12-1am in the morning needs some sort of rejuvenation.

If only, if only I could turn back time.

Hmm... Let's not dwell over this doleful state of my life, instead let's bring out the mirthful soul. It is the month of Ramadan everyone! :D

The holy month meant for good deeds, repenting & Thailand ghost movies. Just because.

Also, I could have sworn I saw a jembalang once or twice & if it wasn't Ramadan I'd probably freak out & wet my pants but oh my imaginative mind.

I am pretty excited for next Saturday: there'll be the Teachers Day Rehearsal as well as a family reunion! BEST (Y) I can't wait to see the performances of the other graduating classes & my cousins.

Allah has blessed us today with cool rain, perfect weather for perfect everything.

I had a plan for today but it seems that it isn't going as planned & there seems to be an obstacle (in the form of my mother) preventing me from carrying out what I had perfectly planned in my mind. *deep sigh*

I just texted my form teacher asking if there were lessons tomorrow & oh holy mother of joy, she replied me with a "Nope dear. :)" PUT YOUR HANDS UP, GET YOUR DRINKS UP EVERYONE!!!

& I'm thinking of wearing red tomorrow since my red tee is simply comfortable but the thought of wearing red alone is kind of.... sad. Thus, Operation Manipulate Syazzy is going to be carried out very, very soon. Soon as in in 2 hours time.

& 4/3, THERE SHALL BE PRACTICE TOMORROW. I am so sorry if this ruined any sort of plan :(

I feel like I have broken some hearts when I had to choose people to perform in either the first or second part of the pair dance. I can tell that some are disappointed but...

The worse feeling was breaking the news of the need to choose.

The deplorable un-updated iTunes of mine: I have been skipping tens of songs at one go & nothing seems pleasing to the ears. Oh, & I've been very much addicted to Best Love Song (Jason Chen cover). I also realise how he actually, in a teensy way, looks like Zac Zhao (local model)!!!!!!!!!!

& I am a total pedophile because _______________. Yeah, I totally found that short guy omg so cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuute! Hehe :B